Like I shared with you, I spent the entire night with my mother, and I shared throughout the night. Of course, I asked her to hug loved ones in heaven for me, but I also requested this of her. A while back Holy Spirit spoke to me that when my mother died it would be bittersweet for me. He further shared with me that the bittersweet would be in this form of my mother leaving earth but in that same time I would then meet the man He was sending to be in my life. Can you see how that could be bittersweet? On the one hand missing my mother here on earth then being happy with the spouse He was bringing to my life. Periodically when He would speak with me about this subject, I would sort of put it in the back of my mind so as to not have to think about it. Wouldn't you do the same if you were in my shoes?
Years ago, Holy Spirit spoke to me that God is a matchmaker. I was at the time kind of surprised to hear that because until that time I just never thought of Him in that way. He then shared with me that there is a hallway in heaven where portraits are there of couples (a male & female husband and wife couples that is) God Himself brought together as husband and wife. I asked my mom after she was not busy in heaven with greeting others on her arrival to look for this hallway. When she finds it, she will see the man of God that is in the portrait with me. In that moment I saw a glimpse of a portrait displayed (which had a beautiful ornate picture frame it was in, sort of like a portrait size you know, when people have portraits painted that size) amongst others and I was only able to see me in the portrait. The man's face in the portrait was not shown to me. What do you think about that. Let's go back even more years ago when Holy Spirit spoke to me as I was sitting in the parking lot of The Euclid Public Library and whispered to me that the man of God, He is sending to my life would be a man that would love me like Christ loves the church. How beautiful is that and I have not let go of Him speaking that to me and that was well over 25 years ago. That must be some special man that could love another like that. Well worth waiting for do you agree.
A friend shared with me that I may meet this man in the new region I am moving to. I do not know the answer to that, but this is one of those faith walks in my life. I have faith and great faith at that when Holy Spirit shares golden nuggets with me. I keep packing up my place now so as to not be overwhelmed the closer it gets to the moving date. This is a sick region in which I reside in now. How can any parent kill their children. Innocent children that a deranged parent feels should take these lives. That is sick twisted stuff, wicked sick that is. I know Jesus is not pleased at all that His children are being treated that way. Shootings and crime increase is on the rise and why is Governor Lee not doing anything in an active way to stop this stuff? Can you tell I am troubled by all this mess that seems to surround us. Lord Jesus keep the children safe and let them find deep, deep love in heaven as they join the ranks of the company of believers in heaven. Bless the children Lord bless the children. In the bible you said to bring unto you the little children when the disciples we trying to distance them from You. As I began to work on this again, I saw a news feed of some deranged man that shot himself in the face and was walking up and down a highway and they had to close the interstates for some time so others would not be in his path since he was carrying a gun. Governor Lee what are you doing about curtailing this rampant crime wave in this community. Just another very wide door being shut to me staying in this region. I have been getting the signs of doors shutting for me to stay in this region for some time now. When a season is up in my life, He always shows me doors shutting so as to not look back or stay out of being settled in my routine. The safest place to be is following the cloud and winds of Holy Spirit and go in the direction He leads in.
I am getting closer to the area than ever before. On a drive years ago feeling the presence of God so very strong in a rural region (so strong that I began to cry in my car while driving in this region) that I just knew I would be there 1 day and somehow, I would find a place near the water, and it would be like a 2nd home. A place of refuge and retreat for ministers visiting to come and find refreshing. I have a house full of furniture and when I would be married this little place of refreshing would be our retreat (get away from the hustle & bustle of the city life) not only for us as a couple but a place where minister friends could go and find refreshing. See, Holy Spirit speaks to His children and shows vision well in advance of it taking place. So as to be reminded of it the closer you get to the vision stepping into it.
Oh, maybe I had the wonderful experiences with my mom's final hours with her because it has been many weeks so far that I pulled back and have been fasting from sugar. I am adapting and even when I bake to not even try what I bake because we all know the good bakery has sugar in it right. I may bake a few of my mom's favorite cookies and take them with me to Ohio to have at the luncheon following the celebration of life mass. My sister-in-law is such a blessing to me that she was asking me what ingredients I needed to bake with that we could bake together while I will be staying with her that week.
Leading up to me going to Atlanta last weekend I was also fasting where I would only drink liquids throughout the day and then I was released to eat after 4PM. You know sometimes He has me do that and, on some days, He may say to me it is ok to eat at noon. It truly is a relationship one must have with Holy Spirit to hear His voice directing you. Don't be so stubborn headed so as to not hear Him harkening to you ok. Stubborn just may keep you away from great favor and great blessing coming to your very life.
There truly is strength and power that comes forth when one fasts. I am talking about Holy Spirit prompted fasts and not man-made prompted fasts that is.
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