I shared with you all that I volunteered as a lunch mom at a Catholic school my children attended. It was part of the tuition agreement that a parent(s) volunteer 20 hours, I chose the lunch program. I am going to type this out so I do not have to strike out names etc. from actually just taking a picture of the pages in this journal entry. The time frame was 9/28/1995 @ 1:30PM when I entered this into my journal:
"I am being guided to volunteer at ___ with the lunch program (they can use the help and I need to fulfill my 20 hour obligation.) The children are wonderful-I see goodness in all of them-even when they act out on occasion. Children truly are gifts from the Lord and they should be treated with kindness, love and respect-as so they should also treat each other and adults. I find myself anymore (through the guidance of the Holy Spirit) praying for these children (including my children also) at ___-for peace & love in their lives-that they are shown kindness & love & that they feel safe when they are with their caregivers while at school (those with whom we entrust our children with.) Blessed Mother I see nervousness in some children-I saw fear and apprehension the other day-words are spoken from another mother 'there really is no scandal going on here.' There is much sternness in some that work this program & then there are the few that are perplexed by seeing such ways that situations are handled and why are some grades really watched and other grades are not. I know that there should be order & rules to follow at lunch time-there should be an even balance-this is the children's time to relax and eat-if there are reasons for this-explain them-that is fine. The children that need the supervision the most-there is no authorative figure around ___ & the young ones are always being corrected-talked to in a manner that is not loving & caring & nurturing-it reminds me of something you'd see on tv-run like a boot camp. One of my children vomited a couple of times at lunch & seems to be fine on the days I volunteer-now today-I checked with the nurse-almost at 12:30PM they came to her feeling like they had to vomit-they did not vomit-their temperature was fine-12:30PM is when lunch is over & back to school-oddly enough this occurred on a day when I did not volunteer-lunch was in the classroom today. I went to the Shrine today to burn 2 candles in thanksgiving for me completing the novena's to the Holy Spirit & St. Anthony. When I was at the shrine I stopped in the gift shop to get a bottle for blessed water and a candle to give to the woman doing the income taxes. I felt very strongly to ask Sr. (Sister) to please pray for my children & all the children at their school-that I saw fear & apprehension the other day with the older boys that were acting up & were to be written up & taken to room 21-one asked me to please say he didn't do anything wrong he didn't want to go to that room-Sr. told me to get some blessed water & place it at the entrance to that room-she said this is where the fear is coming from-if there is anything happening-it will all come out-she said don't scatter the water here & there go directly to that room. So, I went to the office and asked if I could see room 21 & they looked at me & said it's an ___ grade classroom-I said I would not disturb them-that there were children who had fear the other day at the lunch room-the principal disputed me and said they are punished in her office-I said ok-& I walked up to room 21 & took a little of the shrine blessed water & just made the sign of the cross there-as I entered the school I had the blessed water on my hands & it was also on my hands as I left the school & touched the door. A few days ago I knew that the children needed the blessed water-but I didn't know how to get it to them-I kept thinking-offer it to them at lunch-in the Lord's time. He guided me through another on how to get the water where it needed to go-so the Blessed Mother-the Mother of all creatures could do her work with the children-with her children. I also prayed that her mantle of protection be with the children. This was to be done-for it just flowed-like so many things in my life-where the Holy Spirit works through you & with you-the doors seem to open to do His work. Thank you again Holy Spirit for strengthening me with Your gifts through the novena and St. Anthony for assisting me in finding my blue topaz-as I woke up Sunday morning I could see in my mind exactly where it was under the seat (drivers) in my Stealth & sure enough it was there. Also on that same day I went to the Lutheran church for the installation of their new pastor-I knew that I would meet ___ (the beautiful woman I spoke with when the kids applied for Camp ___) I turned to this woman that was with an elderly woman & I could hear the words ask "do you know ___" as I was speaking the words changed "are you ___." I've longed to meet her in person so I could thank her my children both loved the Camp__ experience. Thank you thank you thank you-when I go on Your guidance & the fear is removed-things truly happen-it is all in Your timing."
Let me jump this ahead a bit now to 12/18/1995 5:45PM:
"Through my prayers I was guided to purchase a very special Christmas gift for the children of ___ school. I went to one of my favorite places where peace and love just radiates __ shrine- I enrolled the children for 1 year at the shrine 52 masses will be said for the children...in their card I was given these words... Dear children of ___ school, Know that God's love is in each and everyone of your hearts. may peace and blessings be bestowed upon you and your families during this most joyous season...the birth of Christ. I then signed my name to the card. The president of student council read the card over the p.a announcement system so the children knew of the masses. As I write this I can't help but feel sad-my work will be coming to an end soon with the children at this school...the Lord has other work for me and I must be open to His leading. Rejoice, rejoice, rejoice-the Lord has come and He will return again. He prepares us all for the 2nd glorious coming...all sing & praise our Lord...for as we await this coming you can truly be open to Him in your hearts and lives. He waits in love for your prayer and asking of Him to enter into your life...all I can say is that it is ever sweet when you give up your will and accept the will of God. May we all be blessed and pray for many to open their hearts to the Lord-He turns no one away. Amen, sing with praise."
A side note, I received a card thanking me for looking out for them at school and a few of the older children signed it and to this day I still have that card.
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