I was booked on a flight heading back home the end of this week. I am just not ready to go through this again with another loved one in my life. They are in heaven, and I recently had the blessing honor of visiting with them while still alive when I was in Ohio for my mother's celebration of life services/gatherings. I struggled with this a bit and then realized it is not in my life right now. I am still going to the chiropractor for treatments from the auto accident when someone hit me from behind. The logistics of this, this time around are just not there. I would have to do this on my own because no one is here physically to help me out. Meaning loading luggage into my car; taking the luggage and placing on a shuttle to the airport from the parking garage; getting it in the airport; then the same thing once I land in Cleveland to get a rental car. Not right there in the terminal but you have to go offsite to get the car. That is just 1 way then there would be the return flight back home. Too much luggage lifting for me as my close family & friends know all so well, I do not pack light luggage. I just never know if I want to change my outfit agenda to wear last minute. So, I pack extra outfits. I often say if I were travelling oversea, I would probably be better off shipping it in advance of my trip. Point is, I do not pack lightly, and I can laugh at that truth. So, for all of you light packers of luggage out there have a bit of empathy on me ok. When I first told my daughter I didn't think I was going to come she said to me to pack lightly like using a duffle bag. I think we laughed because we knew that was probably not going to happen.
My former mother-in-law (I am not going to refer to her as former because she was the only mother-in-love I ever had.) I wanted to originally fly into Akron/Canton airport and drive in from there because it allows me to drive past the rest stop area in Bath, Ohio where Jesus performed a miracle on me and healed me right there. It is always good to look back and re-visit those places where miracles take place. When I would fly into that airport, I would stop at Harry London's Chocolates near the airport and get some chocolates for her. She loved chocolates and sweets too. So, I researched a bit and found out Harry London's was sold to Fanny May chocolates, but the former CEO was the grandchild of the London family and created their own chocolate company still in Canton Ohio area. I did a further search with All City Candies and saw a video comparing Harry London buckeye candy to Fanny May's version and Waggoner's chocolate version. By far they said Waggoner's was the closest to Harry London's. Further searching brought me to call Waggoners after inquiring via an email how their buckeye candies are comparable to London's. I ordered a variety 2-pound box with heavier on the buckeyes and sent it to my daughter. With the intent of allowing the people coming to the funeral to enjoy grandma's love of chocolates. She said she will put them out at the wake for people to enjoy. She tried one and said it was good but did not know what to compare it to like her brother does. He knows buckeye chocolates because I used to order them around the holidays from QVC. I think it was a 5-pound tin variety of flavors when they used to sell Harr London chocolates. If I remember correctly one year the factory maybe had a fire so they substituted Giannio's chocolates in the holiday tin. I started ordering them each year and would give them out as extra treats with Christmas gifts. They even sell that brand in bulk at Bernie Shulman stores. Well, I come to find out recently that my son really never did like the substitute brand in comparison to London's chocolates even though both were made in Ohio.
That caused me to go on the search for Harry London quality candy. The real test will be when he is in town to taste the buckeye from Waggoner's to see if it is pretty close the London's buckeye. Oh, what we will do as a parent to bring happiness to a child. It is my pleasure to do that, it really is my delight to bring smiles to their faces (my children and friends that is.) I am blessed to be a blessing to bless others. I picked up the other day a Lawsons Chip Dip for my friend's family to try when I will see them today. We plan on going to a worship/prayer gathering in Franklin. I have wanted a collapsible wagon for quite some time now. I drove into Nashville yesterday and actually purchased the only one left in Hurley brand @ Ollie's. My friend told me that is a great outdoor line of products and to get one for 79.99 was a good price. Well, it got even sweeter because literally yesterday I received a coupon from Ollie's giving me 20% off of one item purchased. I will use this wagon for transporting things like my camp chair and handheld instruments when I go places. I can put a few camp chairs in it today and it even has drink holders too. It is a beach wagon, and do you like the colors of the removable liner it came in. Ollies also had Instant Pot duo of pressure cooker/air fryer. Since I was not going to Ohio and spending $ on a car rental I purchased one for both of my children and one for me also. My daughter is so kind and considerate when I first asked her if she would like one. She responded to me she would take my old one. I like the fact that I will no longer need to use 2 separate appliances since they are built into one appliance. I would like to try the dehydrator feature. She said she would try that to dehydrate stuff for her 2 bunnies. My son was gracious also with his response to me. He would like one if I bought it as a Christmas gift for him.
I am a generous person I share what I have with others be it lean or more prosperous times in my life. I really do and you know that if you know me at all.
Next subject at hand now. I know I hear from Holy Spirit when He speaks to me. Last night I watched Up To the Mountain with Jacobs Tent from Cleveland, TN. Paul Wilbur, Joshua Aaron & Marty Goetz. I am playing it again right now as I am composing this. For a few days now I have been playing in my home the instrumental only of Prayers for Israel by James Goll. I watched a replay of the other day with their Esther fast for Israel and whomever those ladies that were in the video with James Goll missed the mark that day. How do I know I hear from Holy Spirit? That very morning early Holy Spirit had me read all of chapter 62 in Isaiah. So, as I am watching the replay later in the afternoon, he states in the beginning they are to read the whole chapter that day. That was my confirmation and yes and amen to that. Not one of those ladies that day followed through when he was asking them what was standing out to them. They did not read the entire chapter that day and I do not know these women, but they missed the mark that day, but I heard Holy Spirit way earlier in the morning and read the entire chapter that day. Then there was revelation about minerals or something like that that will be discovered in Israel. In that moment I heard Diamonds. I was watching a replay not live time. Then one of the ladies mentions diamond, I heard it way before ever hearing her say that and I asked Holy Spirit to let me be the one that has Jewish blood in her to find the diamonds in Israel because He knows I would be honorable in the find and not prostitute the find but find with integrity and respect of the people of Israel. Sometimes Holy Spirit sets up things just for you to bring confirmation that you are hearing Him. Praise goes all to God.
On the same day I received back my repaired car from the accident I strategically received in the mail that very day the paid off title to my car. Debt is paid in full imagine that. I think that is some sort of prophetic story in that.
Back to me sharing how I am not just ready to attend another funeral now. It is still fresh within me the healing of my mother going to be with Jesus. I brought 2 music CDs with me on that trip to see her and played for her. One was the Christmas CD and the other was by the Larson family "Here We Are." I had the pleasure of being able to listen to music again in my car with having a CD player. I played that CD on my journey driving yesterday. It hit me and I cried off and on while listening to it. I played those very songs for my mother in her last moments here on earth. Our special time together through the night I stayed up with her and did not sleep. I talked and shared, and it was truly a special time for me in my life. She is in heaven along with her dear friend, my mother-in-love and they are rejoicing together now. No sickness, but life and joy filling them in heaven. I wonder if these waves of crying and missing them even though I know they are in a much better place will subside. I am most better off sending chocolates for others to enjoy and have the sweet memory of seeing her alive the last time I was in Ohio and not the memory of her now that she is deceased if that makes sense.
I think Marty Goetz & Paul Wilbur have Ohio connections. Remember for 4 years I lived at a university location right in the heart of a Jewish community. God knew all along that one day I would discover my Jewish heritage I think that is divine destiny worthy stuff do you agree. Peace to all and most important I pray for the peace of Jerusalem, AMEN.
I just posted a picture and gentle sentiment words to the obituary. This is what I shared:
"I will always remember the many trips Betty would take with my mother and some with their shared grandchildren together and even with my mom's grandchildren they did not share. These children would also lovingly refer to her as Grandma Betty also. Many memories for the children to always have tucked away in their hearts forever to bring a smile or two to their faces when pondering upon them. Betty was most kind, loving, generous and always had something nice to say. "
Now, it has to be approved before it gets published. I am ok if it does not get published because I am sharing the heartfelt sentiment with you all today to honor this woman.
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