A Prayer I Prayed For Approximately Maybe 12 Years Was Answered On Palm Sunday. Would You Like To Hear About It?

 I was involved in deliverance ministry when I resided in the state in which I grew up in. As a member of a deliverance team, an annual deliverance was required of you to participate in. Since I moved I have searched for a church that flows in deliverance ministry in each area where I resided. I found none that were similar fashion to the way I was trained in deliverance ministry until ... I am not joking about this matter at all, that was my prayer and for many years I found none. When I began a 30 day fast and prayer with daily communion in regard to wisdom for ministry/my assignment my prayer was answered on all days, Palm Sunday. I am not going to go into detail of this miraculous testimony because I already journaled the details for documentation purposes of prayer answered but I will share highlights ok.

It is sort of likened to a treasure hunt if I may us that analogy. One thought led to an action. A conversation then confirmed the direction in which Holy Spirit spoke to me and the next thing I knew I was scheduled for a deliverance ministry appointment. Not a conventional manner of in person ministry but ministry via a "live" meeting via the computer. I thought to myself will this really work as opposed to in person ministry. Let me assure you it did take place and it was a success. I connected with the ministry that trained me a couple of times in deliverance. I even took a class in advanced deliverance ministry at one time. I began to search and found 5 deliverance manuals I already had. I then received the 6th manual via a downloadable version. It felt like I was safe and secure like being with a trusted friend going in this direction for deliverance.

So, I am guessing it may have been around 2008 or 2009 since my last deliverance in which I went through. You have homework to complete in advance of the day of the deliverance session. I can assure you it is imperative to complete the homework assignments. Both as the delivered and as the one conducting the deliverance on another. DO THE HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENTS ok. One of the assignments is to compose a list of those you choose to forgive. I was already beginning to get names from Holy Spirit to place on the list even before my first session was to take place. As He showed me I would write them down. I would then do the proclamation on forgiveness and also break the ungodly soul ties too. Then more names would come to remembrance and I handled that grouping in the same manner. Now remember it has been years since my last deliverance so life went on and so did the list grow in regard to forgiveness. Just before the deliverance session then you burn the list. How many names do you think I accumulated over the years? Well guess what, I stopped counting after it hit 300. See, this is cleansing and this exercise then allows all open doors to be shut and it gives the enemy no legal right/access to remain in you. These are people in which you have resented and have unforgiveness in your heart. You are choosing to forgive and release all judgements against them and to forgive and accept yourself in the name of Jesus. It almost feel like a burden is being lifted each time you forgive names on your list. I have found that no matter how many times one goes through deliverance you may see a name appear on your list that you already dealt with prior. Another layer or aspect is being dealt with each time you choose to forgive. Trust Holy Spirit in this for He is most faithful. Then there comes the moment of freedom by the simple yet powerful act of burning the list. I am only sharing one assignment as an example right now.

On the deliverance day session I was not 100% sure as we started out how powerful this would be via an internet meeting but let me assure you it was quite powerful. Sixty seven (67) spirits were dealt with in my life that very day. The way I was trained in deliverance was at the close of each section of the strongholds list category dealt with then you speak in the opposite of what was removed. An example would be if you dealt with the stronghold of  Slumber and the spirits connected with slumber you would then speak in something like they will have the mind of Christ and be aware of all the enemies strategies in advance.

Can you tell that deliverance ministry is the fire inside of me to set the captives free in the name of Jesus? See, when one is set free then they are free to follow what God has called them to do in their life because the clutter has been removed in their life. Oh another important thing to share, when a couple is preparing for marriage they go to a minister for pre-marital counseling right? That is great but they should also set aside time to go through an individual deliverance. I would not recommend them doing the deliverance as a couple but to do it individually. That way each one has total freedom to be totally honest and soul search with freedom and not try to cover something up because you may not want the other to hear about what is between you and God. The purpose is to leave behind baggage in your life and come to the marriage freely without the baggage because it was already dealt with in the deliverance. 

There is power in deliverance ministry and the church really does need to actively allow this ministry to flow again in church. In the first session I found this information rather interesting. About 30-40 years ago deliverance ministry was in the church until it became "flaky." Meaning every time someone would sneeze or cough they thought the person had a demon/spirit and would want to cast it out when in fact that was not the case, they just had to sneeze or cough so pastors tended to shy away from the ministry and pulled it from their church. Isn't that interesting, I do not know this as a fact because I was not dealing with thing of this nature 40 years ago but it sure did make sense to me when I heard it.

Went Walking & Holy Spirit Says To Share What I Wrote In 2005 In One Of My Ministry Workbooks/Manual

I have 5 manuals on the same subject and was able to download another copy this past weekend. I was going through my manuals and discovered I wrote an experience I had in the inside last page of 1 manual. Isn't it amazing how when you read an experience you had that you write about and as you read it again it takes you back to that very experience. Only Holy Spirit can do that for you, do you agree?

11/15/2005 @ 9:00AM

"As I was walking today at the Vermilion High School track I was praying in the spirit this is what the Holy Spirit revealed to me. It was a rainy day & there were several worms of all sizes out on the track. As I would step on one-if I didn't physically apply force to the stepping on of a worm it only wounded it-not kill it. It was revealed to me to compare the worm as a demon & their power to a person. If you kill a worm when it is small it doesn't take as much force or effort to kill it-when a worm is much larger-just walking over it really does nothing even if the right amount of force is not applied to it-it will still live or move on even though it is wounded- it is wounded-for a larger one-you must physically exert pressure in order to kill it. The analogy is ... it is better to cast out a demon from a person while it is small & new-it is much easier to free the person from it then when it is larger & much older or has resided in the person a much longer time. The force or pressure that is exerted is the written word of God. It is much better to stop a small one before it can have the opportunity to enter a person. As I was walking the Holy Spirit prompted me to kill or step on several small worms-He asked me- "If I knew that a demon was travelling to get into one of my family members-would I be so casual as to let it go?" I answered no & a force rose up inside of me that I will get it before it gets my family member. Thank you Holy Spirit. I started off my walk today speaking out loud to satan that each time I place my foot down on the track it was crushing his head & I began to say the word "crush" each time my foot hit the ground. I then prayed in tongues & the above was revealed to me. Amen."

I remember walking on the track on a rainy day and there would be worms everywhere and it would have that worm scent in the air. I did not like the scent given off from all of those worms on the track. Sometimes you had to watch where you were walking so as to not walk on a worm. Imagine a track with many worms on it as you were walking. Isn't that funny how you remember things like that? I also remember the terrible "fishy" smell the air would have when the algae would be in full bloom in the lake. Life goes on in the midst of things happening in your life. Choose life in Christ.

2 Miracles I Experienced Yesterday 3/20/2021

 I was up pretty early yesterday morning. I started my day with doing a little bit of healing practices from Joan Hunter's "Healing The Whole Man Handbook." I did adjustments with growing out leg that was uneven in length. So I am checking my arms to see if they need adjustment. Wow, when I followed the instructions I found that one arm was about 1/2 inch or so shorter. In this particular exercise you can see the difference in length and as your hands are brought together you can actually see the arm grow by seeing the fingers begin to line up and eventually become even right before your very eyes. I had not just spoke it to grow in the Name of Jesus once, twice but much more. I worked this until all fingers lined up in length. You have to get the book to understand what I am speaking about. At one point  I already spoke over and over again to grow in the name of Jesus then I just kicked into the "More" mode and repeated "more" over and over again until the arm grew to the proper length it should be. At the conclusion I thanked God for this miracle just after I commanded the arm in the name of Jesus to stop growing when it achieved the proper length. AMEN.

2nd miracle for the day. I went to the mailbox and a certain package was delivered yesterday. This was a special request I submitted and it was fulfilled all to bring glory to God as the final conclusion when it is then sent off to where it goes. See, what are the odds in the natural that a request would even be seen by the right people and get to the right person to even review the request? I do not take things of this nature for granted and trust in Jesus that He is in control. I did not know if this request would be fulfilled and in the event it was not going to be fulfilled I already had a back up response to an email. Agreeing with the not fulfilling response if it was going to happen that I honored the response and total judgement of the person. You may think to yourself that is not faith in operation is it. Quite the opposite for I am learning about submission and I think submission is just as important as faith fulfilled. I knelt at my bedside with thanksgiving that evening for the miracles fulfilled that very day.

I needed to seek out a webcam yesterday also. So I found one I had from a few years ago. I actually used it to take the picture you see of me on my blog. I probably did not use the webcam since around 2014 but I saved it with my computer related items. I found it yesterday and read the CD stating it was good for certain levels of Windows versions. Well, my computer is updated beyond the levels referenced. I took it with me to an office supply retail store and asked them if they thought it would still work. They suggested it may not since it showed on the CD what it worked with. So, I purchased a new webcam but oddly enough as I was looking at it with the manager it seemed to appear like the one I brought in for now @ 39.99 price. I went home and somehow by searching around I stumbled on Camera on my computer and the webcam worked (the new one that is.) I went to bed and I got this great God idea this morning to just try out the old webcam to see if it works as if I was using the new one. Guess what? It works perfectly fine so I can take back the new one and use what I already had Praise God. God truly does care about what you care about and Holy Spirit shows us how to flow doesn't He.

I am in the midst of a great testimony that I cannot share for a bit right now but it is well worth the wait because the hand of God is all on this one. Not that He is not in other testimonies of mine but this is a mile marker testimony for me in the works. I have been going over manuals I had from the years in the 2,000's and there is so much wealth of information how it blesses me so. I even found when going through one of the manuals I wrote an experience I had one day while walking at a local high school track in 2005. When the timing is right I will share it with you. Do you ever feel you just know what you know what you know is your divine calling in life. I have and it is as if it is being re-stoked again inside of me. It is all God's perfect timing, it truly is.

I stopped at a local Christin bookstore yesterday to pick up some more communion sets and also purchased the Lily of the Valley scented anointing oil. The clerk asked me how I use the anointing oil and in my testimony of me sharing my experience of how I use it I found myself actually teaching at the same time, that amazes me. In search now for planters that will sit on top of the rail of my deck, harder to find then I thought. See, in the winter plants go dormant and look like they are not thriving but in the spring comes the rose so to speak. That is the song I heard in my mind yesterday as I took pictures of my plants thriving and coming forth as new life again today. My Hosta plant in the winter I covered it with a few plants that do grow in the winter months. I took them off of the Hosta covering the other day and discovered life springing forth. God is Great God is Beautiful and He is full of life. Look for the tall tell signs of the life of God in your life ok.

See the new life bursting forth.

Look what was hidden underneath the plant covering.

Bette Midler and Wynonna Judd - The Rose

Change Is In The Air, Change Is Everywhere. Do You Know Who Fuchsia Pickett Is?

 Wow, a few days ago I was up early and had a desire to read. I recently finished reading a book and was waiting for another book I ordered to be delivered to me in the mail. I went to my book collection and was drawn to a book I had for many years but never actually read it. I pulled it out and began to read. "The Next Move of God" by Fuchsia Pickett. Beleive it or not this book had a copyright of 1994 and was published by Charisma House. Leave it up to me, surely I somehow found a typo? What is up with publishers even back then that they do not proof manuals and put the best foot forward for their clients? This truly baffles me does it baffle you too?

I get it if there are errors like for example, the latest thing like a popular app but not being controlling like them is Parler. It is pronounced like the word PARLOR but it is actually spelled PARLER. I get it if a person does not catch something like that when proofing. They may be thinking the proper pronunciation in their mind and type what they're thinking but it really is spelled slightly different. I have done that myself until I train myself to purposely remember the correct spelling. For many years I would pronounce when speaking Ghirardelli chocolate as Ghiraldi chocolate until one of my children brought it to my attention and from that point forward I would have to visualize the actual spelling of it so I remembered to say it correctly.

After reading from this book it sent me on a search to learn more about her ministry. I literally listened to many hours of her preaching via videos. From that I was inspired to look up and listen to Lonnie Frisbee. Then I moved onto listening to the top Christian songs from 1969-1979. These events were going on when I was still young and did not even have a clue they were taking place. I listened to one church service where Lonnie was sharing his testimony and let me tell you this, it could have been a sermon meant for today in which we are living. Search out and expand your horizon as HolySpirit leads you because you just may find deep treasures hidden as true gold nuggets in your life for today.

If You Did Not Listen To Bishop Bill Hamon Sharing About Friends & Employees You Probably Will Not Understand This

I recently heard Bishop Bill Hamon share about friends & employees in your life and how to deal with them.  I then had the opportunity this past weekend to hear him share on this again and expound on it more. As I am listening Holy Spirit speaks to me to follow through in 2 areas in my life. I am happy to report that both have been accomplished as I write this today.

First task was to go to the Chinese restaurant in which I contracted food poisoning recently. Holy Spirit shows me going there and explaining to them that even though I got sick I was thankful to them because I was able to trust in God to take care of me & see me through that. An employee I do not think understood what I was trying to explain. They kept wanting me to give my phone number for the owner to call me. I said that was not necessary because I was thankful for the opportunity to call upon my Father in heaven and the experience caused me to draw closer to God. I tried to give the employee a cash amount Holy Spirit showed me giving them as a blessing. They kept waving to me like no money. So I then placed the money in the donation/tip box and left.

One down and 1 more to go now. Head to church and bless the person I do beleive I sat next to many months ago and I contracted covid. How in the heck was I going to approach this one? I really sought Holy Spirit on how to bless this person. I saw the amount of cash and already had it set aside for the right moment. I think I am going to search for this person and just tell them something like this, Holy Spirit wanted me to bless you with a little treat/coffee/snack money blessing. See, it is imperative to listen to the heartbeat of Holy Spirit direction in your life. Be sensitive to His nudge and not try to figure it out in your own mind/might. It totally changed from what I thought would happen. As I am sitting there in church He gently speaks to my heart to take the money out and ever so gently slip it under the tissue box sitting right next to me. To leave the cash blessing for whomever finds it at church. See, I would have messed this up big time if I acted out of what I thought was the way to approach this. I followed through and obeyed Holy Spirit.

I went after church to a store while I was in close distance to the store after church. I found absolutely nothing there and drove home. I was kind of tired while driving home and I actually laid down to take a nap for about an hour when I got home. So unlike my manner to just lay down and take a nap in the middle of the day. I also went for a walk today early in the evening. Oh, if you want a decadent treat I recommend getting the orange cranberry Irish soda bread from Sprouts Market.

You know there are times in which this solitude life I live can get quite quiet. I ask the Lord to have someone call me and see how I am doing and give words of encouragement to me. It tends to be me being the one calling others with words of encouragement. Why do you think this is, I know the reason. I have had this conversation more than once with Holy Spirit. He shares with me that the words spoken over my life come from me seeking Him and He is the one that blesses my life. I find contentment in that for He never leaves me or forsakes me. Please know there are times when others do call to check in on me, for that I am grateful in those times & moments. Know that God is love.

Chosen Books Such A Pleasure To Read Through A Book With No Typo Distractions, Thank You

Wow do you know how refreshing it is to pick up a book and read it with no distractions of typo errors. I just finished reading a book by Jane Hamon, "Discernment The Essential Guide To Hearing The Voice Of God." This book is jam packed with knowledge for the one that has ears to hear and eyes to see. I highly recommend it especially if you live in the Nashville region. There is a section that was an eye opener in regard to the strongholds of this city.

This past weekend I participated in an online conference where Jane & Tom Hamon and Bishop Bill Hamon spoke/shared/impartation. In one day I wrote down notes in my journal. All 3 were confirmations of things I already saw via Holy Spirit. I recently viewed Bishop Hamon on a webinar and then this past weekend he expounded on the subject a bit more. I began to take action just yesterday in regard to what he shared with us about "Friends & Employees." I shared the "bleep" vision given to me while enduring food poisoning and Jane then shares and reminds us of the white stone revelation she had last year. They are overcomers, wow. I do beleive that brought tears to my eyes as she was sharing about that again this year. Then most recent, I was given a vivid warning dream to take caution in regard to the vaccine everyone seems to be pushing upon the people. Maybe this dream was a caution for just me and I do not know the fullness of that dream yet. What I saw in the dream is this is a numbers game and they are trying to push this on even those that do not/may not want to consent to taking the vaccine. I was given scripture to back up this dream also Isaiah 29:2 I read that and then Holy Spirit had me read the entire chapter. So during this conference it was touched upon the ingredients in one of these vaccines. Be cautious of what you are putting into your body along with the trauma connected to the ingredients you choose to put in your body. I followed that wisdom and read chapter 12 of "Healing The Whole Man Handbook."

A weekend filled with promise and confirmation for me. The grand finale was when Bishop Hamon placed us into action mode. Activation and via as Jane refers to it in her book "The Weapon of Prophetic Acts." I participated in that activation right in my home, yes I did. Now, I did not shout as loud as I would shout in church or me driving in my care but nevertheless I shouted and declared defeat to the kingdom of darkness. We have more angels on our side then the enemy has on his side.

Go forth is a day filled with blessings and JOY.                                                                          

If You Live In Nashville Region Watch This Ryan LeStrange Mentions This About What Nashville Is Called To

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Overthrowing Regional Demons! #GlobalHub

I Keep Singing This Over & Over Again: "I Hear The Sound ..."

 I rose this morning from a wonderful dream. I pondered about it in bed before I got up for the day. Yes, it was from Holy Spirit. Thoughts from yesterday events tried to block my pondering about this dream. I put my head under the cover so as to not be distracted with other bombarding thoughts. There is more as the day goes on Holy Spirit will further reveal to me. I had communion today and was inspired to share with you a cloth mask collection I have. Along with the recipe for the fruit bars so you can make it also. This recipe is many years old as you can tell by the picture (I use this recipe frequently as it comes back for me to bake in cycles of life.) I have found that Smucker's cherry preserves & apricot preserves work nice in this recipe. I have also used cherry pie filling. Today I had some fresh organic blueberries I placed on top of the cherry preserves and they blend in lovely with the preserves as it bakes in the oven. I tend to hold back more than what the recipe calls for as the topping portion too. Oh, sometimes you need to bake it a bit longer than the recipe calls for so check on it to see if baking a bit longer will make it a bit more golden in color. Oh, I never bake with oleo or margarine, just butter. One more thought, you can use a variety of preserves. Throughout the years I have baked this with peach, blackberry and raspberry preserves.

I have to send out a package and I got this idea to make a 1/2 recipe of the fruit bars to include in the package. When I make this recipe I tend to not add the walnuts unless I know someone really likes them. So, I am baking in the kitchen and I begin to sing these words over and over again: " I hear the sound of a mighty rushing wind, a mighty rushing wind a sound forever a sound forever." I am even humming/singing it now as I write this blog. Search and expect the mighty rushing wind ok.

All these years of baking this recipe and today I noticed the cookbook has a typing error, can you find it? I bake this at least a minimum of 45 minutes. 

In The Midst Of Fasting I Have To Deal With Food Poisoning. Would You Like To Know Who Took Care Of Me.

I heard someone speaking/preaching/sharing on the subject of fasting and they said specifically what to fast for. That struck a chord inside of me and I sought Holy Spirit. He shared with me what fast, how many days and to take daily communion during this fast. I called the local Christian bookstore where I usually get my communion sets and I was informed they no longer sell the amount you need. They changed their store practice to only buying the amount of already packaged sets. The problem being, I hear Holy Spirit when He gives me direction and it it is not for the amount of pre-packaged communion sets I am now in disobedience with Holy Spirit. Why did they change this?  Holy Spirit has ways to speak to me like get 17 or get 5 etc. and they used to let me purchase them. I think once I even needed like 37 of them and they sold them to me. What's a gal to do now? I went to a local store and purchased a package of saltine crackers (which I normally do not keep in the pantry because they have yeast in them or I will buy if a recipe calls for them.) I also purchased some juice too. So for daily communion I would take a saltine cracker and break it as I prayed and drank the juice that I prayed with for communion. Are you starting to follow this story now. Crackers I do not normally have in my pantry are now there to help sustain me during my time of need with food poisoning.

Last week I had a pretty bad experience with food poisoning. The last time I wrote on my blog I was pretty cold earlier in the evening and sat in a chair and fell asleep with my wind breaker still on after walking that early evening. When I woke up I then wrote on my blog and I felt pretty cold so I turned up the heat register temperature. I went to bed and even turned on an infrared space heater to bring more warmth in the room while I slept. It was around 5AM I got up from it being too hot in the room and shut off the infrared heater and went back to bed. Around 6AM I woke up and oh my gosh, I had vertigo pretty bad, I began to perspire and nausea and vomiting occurred. I had to actually hold onto the bathroom sink so I would not topple over from the dizziness. I slowly walked back to get my phone to call in to tell them I was sick and not coming into work that day. The vomiting and dizziness continued on through the day. I was not feeling good at all to the point I did not even call my children to let them know I had food poisoning until dinner time or around then.

I laid flat on my back and the only time I would get up was if I had to vomit, even at that I just kept a receptacle by the bed and then would rinse it out until the next time it was needed. I know you are probably thinking to yourself she is telling too much info when it comes to vomiting, I am sharing that so you know how bad it was. I was getting cold and asked Holy Spirit please help me get to my sweater to put it on, He did. I asked to help me walk to get my crackers, ginger ale and water/water pitcher to keep in the bedroom, He did. I really did not know what to do because no one was around to help me or get these things for me. I prayed a lot and a long time in the Holy Ghost while I laid there in bed. I remembered hearing Bob Jones say in a video I saw that dizziness is witchcraft. I also heard James Goll say pain behind the eye is also witchcraft. I had the headache also. So with my head under the covers I sought the Lord and Holy Spirit showed me to do some spiritual warfare in the 2nd heavenly and I did. Sometime in the mid afternoon I had my head under the covers again to keep warm and I was shown a vision or I used to call them when I first started seeing in the spirit I would call them "bleeps" because I did not know back then how to describe them other than that. I am praying to get healed and I see something totally different in regard to what I was shown. I was at a persons home that I have never been there before and I was seeing this take place. It was outside on the front lawn. There were steps leading up to the front door but this took place to the right of the steps on the front lawn (if you were coming down the steps that is.) I saw white marker stones that were oblong in shape on the grass and they went across the lawn. In front of each white marker stone (sort of like a tomb stone marker flat in the ground at a cemetery but no writing was on the stones.) In front of each white stone was a person kneeling in white clothing/robes they all knelt in unison in front of their white stone and the next thing I knew they all stood up together in unison and were standing shoulder to shoulder with no gap of space in between. I heard my Father in heaven say, "Saints of Old."

I then asked in this experience moment can I have that too and He responded to ask for it and I would also get the same and so I did. Then it ended. One of my children responded to a text message and said no more sipping ginger ale but to switch to sipping water only not mixing the both of them. I obeyed and it was maybe 2 more times I vomited and then it subsided. You know our Father in heaven cares about us right? Holy Spirit showed me how to try and get up each time I had to get up to test the dizziness aspect. I would sit up halfway in bed then if ok I would sit all the way up. I would then take my legs and place them partly off the bed if no dizziness I would then take them all the way and slowly stand up and walk very slowly. That was the dizziness test I used. Later that night it was somewhere between 10:15PM-10:20PMish I noticed a black circular in shape object on the carpeting. I slowly got up and discovered it was a large spider with lots of legs. I grabbed a shoe and slowly bent down and wacked it twice saying you are not going to get me. I then walked slowly to retrieve my hand held vacuum to vacuum up the disassembled parts. Once again God took care of me with insight through Holy Spirit knowledge/wisdom.

I was able to do a few errands on the weekend but with caution because if I turned my head a certain way too quickly I didn't want to get dizzy again. I heard the night before Sunday to get up and go to church on Sunday. I was to take a blessing offering to a minister that was preaching that I had the honor of serving with their ministry when the tornado struck Nashville last year. I was able to get up and do my ironing along with baking cherry/blueberry & apricot oatmeal fruit bars that morning before heading to church. Why bake? Well, I could not walk or even drive to take my rent to the leasing office so I called them to see if they would be able to come and pick it up from me. They did and I am telling you the kindness and great customer service where I reside is so wonderful. I have a grateful heart and sometimes I show thanks by baking. I took the dessert to them on Monday along with a heartfelt note of thanks.

So, I am at church and Holy Spirit has me write a note of thanks in the notecard I brought with me to church. I already went to the bank the day before and He showed me the money to place in the note. Not to put it in the offering but to hand it to him in person. I had to wait for the right timing to do so. The lady next to me wanted me to give him money from her also. I told her that she should go and take it to him as a blessing. So as we are talking I then asked the minister if it was ok that my friend wanted to also give money and I went and retrieved it from her to give to him. I motion the pastor to come over I had a question. He came over and sat with a few of us as we shared. Mind you, I am the only one wearing a mask at this time even though we were distanced apart in seating so it is a bit muffled when I would speak (I do like this mask I ordered because it is hummingbird/tropical print material.) At 1 point I take the mask off and they seemed to be a bit thankful now they could hear what I was sharing. Well, as the conversation goes ... one thing shared was a confirmation of what me and one of the ladies prayed and I saw months ago, it just may be coming to pass or into fruition. I was brought all that way to church not just to bring an offering but to get confirmation isn't that amazing how God works. I safely went and safely returned back home even after church.

So, the other day I stopped at another local Christian bookstore and guess what? They sold me the amount of communion sets I needed to finish this fast and I can continue to get my communion sets there anytime they are open. I wanted to bless this store owner so I also purchased Rose of Sharon anointing oil. As I was there and we were sharing she then showed me a song she wrote and gave me a copy of it. Not only did she give that to me but she also sang the song for me. Is that not God, yes it is. She said it was ok if I shared the song with the readers of my blog so I will.

Concluding thought ... I participated in a webinar today and one of the near the end thoughts shared was the importance of fasting and prayer and then taking communion during the fast. Hello, confirmation I was doing this all along. He also said this statement that really sticks with me, "God cares about what you care about." So true, so true. You do know He cares about you right?   

                        

Hot Revelation Fresh From Heaven Just Now 3/3/2021. To Be A Perfectionist Or Doing Unto God With Excellence.

I was in prayer time with Jesus just now and He showed me something I am going to share with you now. He brought me back in my minds image to when I would go to the beach by Lake Erie. As I would look out upon the water you could only see so far out and then it was like there was a horizon out there and your mind had to kind of imagine beyond the horizon. Appearing as the end of the body of water there was Canada. I remember on a clear day if you looked in a certain direction you could see Cedar Point or even Kelly's Island out there. 

I am spending away time lately with Jesus. Others may see it as reckless in the respect that you need to get out there amongst the brethren. That there may be danger in being by yourself too much. I may agree with that in certain situations but when your time is being spent with Jesus it is learning time in your life. These are the times I have found throughout my life that I am the student and He is the teacher with less distractions around you to pull you away from Him teaching you. By nature I am very much so a people person but at the same time I am also a contemplator if that makes sense. Example, just today I went walking and this morning I thought to myself how did the name of the apartment complex where I reside come up with their name. I stopped and inquired near the end of my walk and got an explanation and oddly enough it deals with water in one respect in their name. Very interesting isn't that? No question is impertinent and Holy Spirit caused me to wonder just this morning and now I find myself writing about water.

So He shows me the image of the body of water and then explains to me many will go into the water and get their feet wet close to the beach/shoreline. Some may venture out to swim to maybe a light house or pier or something of that nature. The further out you go then less will go that distance. If you go all the way out to the horizon portion more than likely there are very few if any at all. It is Him taking you on that journey and I have found He is most faithful when He takes me out on a journey to faithfully bring me back safely also. When you go out that deep in trusting Him in your life there really are less and less distractions to cause you to pause on your walk with Him. Make sense to you yet?

He knew in the midst of this teaching lesson that I asked Him if I could move out of this region that I need to be by a body of water. I am drawn to the peace and fury at times when a storm comes in by a large body of water, meaning a lake, a great lake at that. I actually sought out moving to a location last year that was by not a great lake but by a lake and nothing came through for me because I was to live by the very body of water that flows through the name of the residence were I reside.

Do you ever feel like a change in atmosphere when you walk into a room? Meaning you can sense that you are there with a purpose to fulfill and regardless of what others think you go there to get the job done. If you are a feeler, boy you can really feel the atmosphere change in the room. If you are tough and a fighter you will not back down and leave the atmosphere. You will stay and trudge through to accomplish the work you have been given to do and keep your focus on the task at hand. I have found that the best gift to give those that may oppose you or what you beleive in faith in Jesus is to bless them. Listen to their hearts desires and then bless them with gifts. I love when Holy Spirit gives me LOVE battleplans like that don't you.

I used to be a perfectionist in this respect. When the children were young and I vacuumed the carpeting I liked to leave neat vacuum pattern marks in the carpeting. It looked so fresh and clean and I knew that room was vacuumed. Then with having children you know that the perfectionist mark of vacuuming the rug was not going to last long right. When I attended CNC I was taught the difference of perfectionism and doing somethng unto the Lord in the spirit of excellence. Do a job unto the Lord in excellence. I still recall when I would see Pastor Tina in the restroom she was not so elevated in her life to not clean the sink area or faucets after using them. Leaving it in a state of excellence for the next person to use. I picked up that good habit from her. Thank you Pastor Tina. That church truly did do things in excellence for Jesus.

Perfection according to the dictionary states "the condition, state or quality of being free or as free as possible from flaws or defects."

Excellence: "The quality or being outstanding or extremely good, an outstanding feature or quality, virtue. Achieving excellence is never easy to do."

I tend to argue a bit against a portion of the definition for excellence. It is easy to do when you are doing it for the right reason being do unto the Lord with excellence. He did that very thing for us when He died on the cross so we could live with Him for all eternity in heaven. He makes it so easy to live like this because He already went to the cross for us and the work was completed in Him. How could our being not sing unto Him thanksgiving and want to share an excellent way of living in Him through you in your very life. As you grow with Him the best and safest place to be is with Him. Let Him guide you and yes, call you into the very deep with Him. He safely brings you out there and safely brings you back in to the shore when the lessons have been taught to you by only the finest teacher there is. Do not be afraid to go a little deeper in Jesus because way out there, there really are less distractions and more alone time with Him. He is faithful and will never let you down. Yes, it can get a bit lonely at times but there is reason and purpose. For if you were always in a busy mode of operation how could you take the time to go way out deep and be filled with His presence?

Please know I love these moments with Him I even get tears while I am in these moments. He is a great teacher and He is the one that through Holy Spirit sets up expereinces in your very life if you are open to them to be used as a teaching lesson.

Lesson learned today ... when I wanted to run again away from where I am now to be drawn to a body of water no need to because I am in one respect living on a body of water. Isn't that beautiful.

Here's Another Oldie But Goodie From 9/20/2000. I Wrote A Letter To Jan & Paul Crouch Of TBN & They Responded To My Letter. I Had No Idea When I Sent The Letter I Sent A Word To Them. Imagine That.

 As I am sharing this with you all I remember receiving their letter in the mail. I sat on the outside steps and read the letter. It touched my heart at the right time when I needed it. This particular journal entry I wrote in purple ink. I do like using colored ink pens when I write. But my favorite color ink to use at work is a blue ink pen. I like the smooth writing ones not the cheapo ones that leave blots of ink as you write. This is the draft I sent back to them after receiving their letter sent to me.

"Blessings Jan & Paul,

Thank you for the letter of "good news" that you sent to me in the Summer. As I opened the letter & read the contents-I began to cry. God is faithful and His love is incredible. Know that I did not know I was sending you a word of victory for the  church when I sent in a pledge along with the writing the Lord gave to me. I heard the Holy Spirit speak to me to send both together. I did it in obedience & thought nothing of it. I began to cry when I read the letter - it happened to come on that special day when I needed it. Thank you. As I read the letter and you asked to send any other thoughts or insight to your private post office box-the enclosed writing is what leaped within my spirit. The Lord had directed me to share it with 2 local pastors. I did. I now share this with you-I know not why-but I send it in obedience. May you be blessed more & more & more."

I then sent a letter to my pastor and shared with him about this experience. I recall the writing I shared that I made mention of. I shared that writing before on this blog it deals big time with PRIDE.

Prancing Right Into Destructive Exile. It is that writing that is located somewhere on this blog.                                                             

As I Continue To Seek Wisdom Blinders Are Coming Off Of My Eyes. Do Not Necessarily Like What I Am Seeing. How I Elevated Certain People & Ministry Also. I Want To Talk About Something Of A Rich Nature Not A Negative Nature .

 With me seeking wisdom in this season of my life I have been drawn to my older dated journals only to find a wealth of great testimony tucked in the pages. I would like to take you on a journey a few days leading up to me leading my dad to Jesus. I have found myself the last couple of days instead of watching the good news station on Roku I've been drawn to the guest bedroom going over journals of mine. This is truly a rich testimony leading up to the day I led my dad to Jesus in the hospital. Literally days before he died. This is the kind of stuff I choose to dwell upon as opposed to what is being revealed to me in another area while I am seeking wisdom. I must admit that Holy Sprit is keeping me tucked away with Him nowadays and I quite enjoy it even though I am a people person per say. I led my dad to Jesus on 9/22/1999.

9/20-99 @ 5:37PM I entered into my journal: 

I am going to type up the first page of the journal entry dated 9/24/99@ 9:28AM. I was beckoned by Holy Spirit to write about the few days that took place prior. I will then just share the actual excerpt from that point on. There is written on the top of the page information in regard to the hospice house so I do not feel to include that and that is why I am typing out the first page of the journal entry.

"The Holy Spirit wants me to record what has happened in the last few days ...

On Tuesday, 9-21-99, I went to the hospital's ICU unit at Euclid General Hospital with my bible-my father was sleeping a lot-he was restless the night before-they even put a restraining vest on him so he wouldn't get confused and try to get out of the bed in ICU. I prayed much while I was there silently in the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit directed me to the blessing in Numbers 6:24-26. I then got up from my chair and I placed my hand upon his left hand and I spoke the blessing out loud-that as Moses prayed over the people I pray over you Dad & I spoke it out loud ... "Dad the Lord bless you and keep you. Dad the Lord make His face shine

 

Didn't I tell you this was a really good testimony. I would much rather dwell on things of this nature then the wisdom being revealed to me in certain aspects. Why is Holy Spirit showing this to me now in my life. I guess there is a reason, maybe like pray for the things I am being shown. I would much rather see the really pleasant things shown to me so I can see them through rose colored glasses and see beauty. I love seeing like that. My heart is a heart that searches out beauty.

So, Who Is Sister Gwen Shaw ...

I was on a quest the last 2 days, in search of finding out who Sister Gwen Shaw was. When I shared with you that I sent her a letter in 1997 per John Rowe's (he has been with the Lord for many year now) guidance I figured I better see who I sent this letter to. That makes sense to you right? I found a video that was just under 2 hours in length. It is her narrating/sharing about her life story. I viewed it on Saturday 2/27/2021 and then again on Sunday 2/28/2021. She definitely has a rich history in her life. Apparently she was married a first time and birthed 3 boys. She does not speak of that marriage per say in her story. She does meet her second husband and she shares how he traveled with her in ministry. I did a further search and found out he went to be with the Lord prior to her homegoing. Amazing ministry took place in this woman's life prior to her 2nd marriage and even so in that marriage and still continued on after his homegoing. Her 2nd husband had a tender heart in the few times I was able to see film footage shared on this testimony video/film.

I see now why John suggested I share some of my writings with her, is it possible he saw an end time Handmaiden in me? As I watched and listened to what an end time handmaiden description was I thought to myself, that sounds a lot like my life years ago and currently, except the travel to minister in nations. Something stirred inside of me when she spoke of the 21 day fast the women would go on just before being prayed over by Sister Shaw to be one of the handmaidens I beleive it was to seek wisdom. I am sure she already achieved the marker of 10,000 women she saw in her vision to become end time handmaidens what do you think? 

I am being reminded now of something I used to pray for a long time years ago. The Lord placed upon my heart to pray for the continents of Africa, Asia & South America. Back then when a missionary or someone connected to one of these continents would come to church and share I would place an offering in the collection for their ministry. I was not physically on the land of these 3 continents but the person that was I placed the seed offering into their hands. If I am not mistaken I made a banner once that incorporated the 3 continents on the banner. I remember I had to get a drawing of what the 3 continents looked like and then had to trace it onto the material I was using for the banner. Isn't that interesting how Holy Spirit brings little bits and pieces to your memory for the composing of this blog. That always amazes me, it truly does. I made that particular banner for the kids ministry at the church I attended. I had to also figure out how to re-create the insignia the children's ministry used as part of their ministry. I had to be creative in the creating of this simple banner. I think Holy Spirit used this banner project not for the church so much, as for me to spend time with Him as we created together. If not mistaken I found out years later that it was placed in a closet for storage at some point in time. It does not matter to me because the memories of creating and following Holy Spirit obedience in my life far outweighed how the banner was or was not used.

It was in this season of my life, that in prayer I had an open vision in which I saw a teen aged African (because this took place in Africa) girl running on a dirt road with no shoes on her feet with her arms outstretched to meet me. She had the biggest smile on her face as she was running towards me. That was the open vision I had during the day in my bedroom. It took place right before my country French, oak etagere wardrobe.

Yesterday I was going walking and I was normally going to go straight ahead until I got the Holy Spirit nudge to turn left and walk the circumference property of a local school. As I turned left on this cloud filled day I saw a peek of a sunshine burst. I walked the property and as I was about to turn right as I was heading in that direction at the end of walking at the school another shot of sunshine comes forth again. Yesterdays mission was to sing a song Holy Spirit gave to me as I walked. I just kept singing this simple phrase given to me over and over again :"The King of Glory, glory, glory Prince of Peace. The King of Glory, glory, glory Prince of Peace." I kept singing it until I arrived back where my car was parked so I could then jot down the words on a piece of paper so as to not let this experience be a fleeting memory but captured to share with you.

As I was going through older journals the last 2 days I discovered a letter I sent to a friends relative. In this letter I am apparently giving to her my rosary from Lourdes, France. I found it quite interesting that in the letter I am sharing how I would pray that rosary and give instruction to this woman who was probably not even Catholic. In the letter I am letting her know that the Lord is having me move in a different direction in my life and not to use tools to pray but use praying in tongues to pray then. I do beleive that may have been the last of me praying with a rosary in my life. Maybe I will share that letter with you sometime. The rough draft letter was dated in my journal 11/2/1997. This is how I worded it in the letter: "The Lord is weaning me from tangible tools to pray with-for He's calling me into a new season of prayer-as He calls upon me at night or wherever I am during the day-He asks of me to pray in tongues. It is a bit different for me but I trust in the Lord. Amen. Hallelujah."