You all know that I went to a woman's conference that was held in Nashville the beginning of May 2023. I was only able to go for 1 day because of family obligations quite honestly that took precedent over me going to bless myself I thought. Well, why did I even purchase a ticket when I wasn't able to attend all sessions? They were kind in the respect that they would have refunded me the ticket amount, or I could have converted it into a livestream ticket. Holy Spirit had me keep the paid in person ticket and select a day in my life schedule that I would be able to attend. He also nudged me to purchase the livestream ticket so I could be a part of the conference since I would be travelling out of state near the end. You know I had a friend traveling in to attend this with me and I reserved a 2-bedroom Airbnb for us in Franklin, TN. They were most gracious and understood how family took precedent over me at the time and I did not stay at that rental location. We were able to meet up one evening for dinner with another friend near where I reside, and we did attend one day of the conference together. My friend went to almost all of the services since they were there to go to the conference. This was used as a growing curve for my friend who I cheered on to attend the sessions even by herself and that she could do it without me being there with her. I said you paid, you are here and just go. So glad she did go. I myself, am almost sorry I did go the day I went though. No one I wanted to hear spoke that day but oh well. I enjoyed the time shared with my friend and the worship was great for the morning (especially the morning session) and evening session. We had great seats my friend selected for us both and we did not sign up in advance for prophetic word time and we both did receive prophetic words that day. I still have mine recorded on my phone. It delved into another word given to me before about going into the creative realm with painting. I had faith enough to believe in the event the one speaker who was sharing about art and healing was there that day presenting I could talk briefly about art healing the heart with my recent mother going to be with Jesus and how we painted together on her 93rd birthday in Atlanta almost 1 year ago. I had my painting and the very 1st one my mother painted when she started to paint with me along with another smaller one the Holy Spirit gave me the design to in order to take back the rainbow as God's not to be mocked by some organization that can just go and steal it from God! That presenter was not scheduled to speak the day I attended, oh well.
While there lets touchdown on the subject of the rainbow now. See, God will not be mocked by such nonsense you do know that right. This particular group which is claiming the rainbow as their symbol of unity is a farce because they only use 6 colors in their rainbow symbol, and we all know there are 7 colors in God's given rainbow of promise to His people. Let's have a lesson now on that if I may. The colors of the true and not counterfeit rainbow are red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. Got it good! Gee, I count 7 and not 6 that alone should put this thing to rest. I guess they left out the color of indigo and refer to purple instead of violet. See, the enemy will use counterfeit to counter the true and powerful of God and what He does. God will not be mocked, He will not. Quit trying to shove the phony rainbow symbol down the throats so to speak of Christians around the world. If the figures are correct in polls, I do believe there are far more with us than against us in numbers alone. Not counting in the mighty force of angels backing us and are with us also. Your cause is slowly fading into the distance and the mighty army of praying people will be shown in mighty signs and wonders in the forefront of this big picture. Repent while time is still at hand and turn from those wicked thoughts and join the army of God. If you read your bible, you will see that His army wins totally in the book of Revelation. Exciting times in which we live in right now they truly are. Do not give up hope but stand strong for Jesus, and He will direct your steps in your very life to get you to His perfect and not permissible destiny in your very life. He loves the sinner but does not accept the sin they are functioning in. It is time for not only the world to clean up their act but the church also. I will share a picture of the day when Holy Spirit began to show me what to draw in regard to the rainbow. I also have a picture of what it looks like finished. I created this on 2/8/2020. I had to mix colors and had to research how to mix them to create the colors of the rainbow. In preparation for this painting, I had to figure out how to get the right color used for the background to represent fire, that is how the fire practice creation came to be on the acrylic artist pad I had purchased to paint with. God is so creative, and I love that about Holy Spirit. Oh, one more thought on the rainbow. I was sharing with my friend how I have not seen a rainbow in the sky when it rains, and the sun is shining somewhere at the same time. I have trained my eyes to look in the direction of where a rainbow would appear in a situation like that. It has been many weeks when I look and see no rainbow in the sky, I wonder why that is. There I go pondering out loud again.
Do you think I am getting this revelation today because I followed His voice yesterday? See, I was completing errands yesterday and I thought I was going to go into Franklin, but I listened to the small, still voice of Holy Spirit and He directed my path, He really did. First stop was the Christian owned grocery store I discovered the other day. Great music playing there because it was Christian music playing throughout the entire store. I found a few items, including fresh grown local produce and Mennonite farm fresh brown eggs. Maybe I am going to do something come Thanksgiving time because tucked away in a box on a lower shelf was Caspari brand of dinner and dessert/cocktail sized napkins. 2 for 1.00 that is really a great deal. I see this brand at TJ Maxx and truthfully it is nowhere near that price. As I am about to pull out of the parking lot do I head to Franklin or keep on going to Winchester? In that split moment He says head into Winchester, so I did. I stopped at a local co-op to use the restroom, and this was a really nice and newer looking store also. I needed local honey and then I found a little decorative plaque. Guess what, Christian music also playing in the store there too. Went to Bargain Hunt because I needed a new camp chair style chair, and I purchased the last one they had with the storage bag with it. As I am pulling out of the parking lot I notice a local vendor selling produce in a local church parking lot. I wanted to drive past it to see if they had zephyr squash. I could not tell by driving by so I turned around and then parked to see. He did not have any and they sold out of their fresh corn already. I did not purchase anything and while waiting to pull out in traffic Holy Spirit nudges me to give him 5.00. I heard it but did not at first respond and then He said it again and I knew to give it. I rolled down my window and motioned him over to the car and said farming is hard work as he shared that their work is never done there is always something that needs to be done. How when the corn is ripe you cannot let it sit there you have to get out there and pick it. I handed him a 5.00 bill and he thanked me and I told him it was Holy Spirit. This little old farmer man had the kindest looking eyes, he really did. Never grow weary of stopping on your journey to bless others. You do not do it to be seen by others for it is God that see's and knows how your heart will respond to His beckoning you. Follow Holy Spirit guidance and you cannot go wrong okay. See, I would have missed the blessing opportunity if I went the other direction that day. Heading home I would drive past a salvage type of store and sure enough I stopped in that store yesterday too. Guess what, great Christian music playing in that store also. I picked up a few snacks to bless co-workers with. An 8 oz. sealed box of Russell Stover assorted chocolates for 2.99 and a clear sealed bag of individual candies mixed variety for 2.99. That all sprung forth by listening to Holy Spirit nudges. I love my adventures with Him I really do. Oh, my journey started off yesterday by making up a plate of brownies and I took them to the local shoe store that has been most helpful to me finding comfortable and properly fitting sandals for me. The brand they sell also sells online a footbed cleaner and brush set to clean sandals like Birkenstocks, etc. I purchased some and began to test it on my sandal footbeds I already had of sandals since my new sandals did not need it yet. Oh my gosh it works so I went to show it to them, and they took a picture of it and said they will be ordering it for the store. I will buy it again because it works. I think I should have been a person that gets paid to test out products because I sure do a lot of that don't I. I feel if something works why keep it to yourself and let others know about it also. Oh, Ollie's had a buyout of The My Pillow brand towels and I purchased a few to see if they really did work like Mike's commercials demonstrate they did. I washed one set and they sure do absorb water like he demonstrated in the commercial. Also found they must have had a buyout of "Lock & Lock" containers at a great price point. See, I have learned to hold off on sharing some things because when I go back to get something they are all gone. Someone must be reading my blog or maybe it is a coincidence.
Back to the story at hand now ... I must admit at the conference I met an older man of color pastor that asked my friend and I in the lobby if we were enjoying the conference. Being truthful, all I could respond was the worship was great and looking forward to the evening worship. That opened up a door to ministry time right there in the lobby of that church. He gave us his phone number to call him with updates in our lives. I sat on that for weeks before I felt led to pick up the phone and call. It was mainly about letting him know a minister used his example of him blessing them at the conference to take up an offering that afternoon. I was in Atlanta seeing that happen livestream. I then asked him if the 100.00 bill I blessed him with was the very same 100.00 bill he blessed the head of the conference with. Sure enough, it was. So I begin to share how Joan Hunter spoke with me in the bookstore that afternoon and what she directly said to me which quite honestly did not sit well with me. I had to ask her to repeat it to me again so I could write it down. I then put it past my spiritual mother in Ohio and we both agreed that God does not speak death but life over your destiny and I did not receive those words from her. Joan, you have to stop placing word curses on people to get them to come to TX to get ordained through your ministry. That is just not biblical at all and quit doing that because you will have to answer to God Almighty one day for that.
When speaking with her she told me there was an assignment of death over or on my destiny until I went to get ordained through her ministry. Oddly enough, I completed all coursework in 2014 but never felt led to go to TX for ordination or I said I attend church on Sundays via livestream Jimmy Swaggart church in Baton Rouge and there is no pastor to get a statement from in regard to my Christian walk/ life. She responded that Baptists that get ordained through her ministry their pastors don't believe in certain aspects so these people cannot get a written statement from their pastors, so they expanded that portion of the application process to have a Christian friend that has known you for 3 years or longer write up their statement in regard to your Christian walk. Even at that you are still looking at just under 500.00 fee prior to you going to TX along with paying getting there and lodging too. As I am sharing all of this with the pastor over the phone he feels led to say he will ordain me under his church and there is no fee involved and how he had to wait and go through this and that when he got ordained. He told me to send my history of ministry info to him on a 5 x 7 card along with my name, address, etc. I told him I actually have a resume of my volunteer experience I had to print up and would then list names of people in ministry I was trained under. I finally did that and placed it in the mail. So, several times I reached out to see if he received it in the mail. We finally connected and he did say he received it and then I told him he was right when he said to me he was waiting to see how my ministry was about to take off and explode so to speak. I shared a bit on the phone with him and he said he would call me back that night. No phone call did I get and have not received since then either. Guess what, I am thinking I will not get ordained through this man of God because he does not follow through with what he says he is going to do (in reference to him calling me back) is what my mind set was. Today I will try to reach out and let them know I rescind my wanting to get ordained through his church. I cannot sit under a ministry or get ordained with one that operates like this. So, was this the enemy using this man or was he planted by another to see what my background in ministry really was. I spoke with him today and sure enough, the enemy plants things to happen to give the appearance that your mind begins to wander with thinking negative thoughts. What the enemy was planting in my mind to think was totally the opposite from what I was thinking. Forgive me Lord for almost judging another. I am still praying about this, and it is not for me to decide if one shares with a ministry what happened in that room or not. That is between the people that were in the men's ministry session. I think I was trying to look out for the women that could have potentially been harmed by that session if the man of God didn't stand up and say pornography is not good at all. Now that is to be commended that the man of God stood up and spoke truth to the other men.
One more reason I am thinking I will not get ordained via this minister is because of something he shared with us in the lobby that day at the conference. He was in one of the breakout sessions for the men and 2 local pastor/preachers connected to this conference and one of them had been on tv before is all he shared. They were telling the men in that room it was okay to participate in pornography and he said he stood up and said pornography is never right and it destroys lives and then that shut down further discussion of that teaching. So, we told him how in that very church we were there one evening to receive the word of God and at the time for whatever reason Lou Engle felt the need to confess to us his sin with pornography. We shared with him how we were women and that is not something we expected to hear that night Lou's confession to us all. There was an altar call and both women and men came forward with their problem dealing in pornography. I was sickened by that experience, honestly in the presence of holy ears of women they did not need to hear that. Why didn't he confess his sin before his congregation or in his city of residence, why Nashville? Even today that happening still baffles me. Apparently, all is good with him now because he is all around the circuit preaching. So, some men are forgiven for their sins and others are made an example of to the world that sure does not seem fair in the one looking in on this. If God forgives all when one turns to Him with a true, sincere repentant heart then who is man to go around judging others they feel they can use as an example. Be careful because the finger pointers just may see the fingers of others pointing on their sins and it backfires. All should repent now and ask God's forgiveness.
I point blank asked him if he ever reached out to the leaders of this conference and told them what happened. He responded no and another time I felt led to share that he should have an obligation to reach out to them because they may not be aware that even took place with the men that day. If he wasn't there standing up against pornography the men in that very room/chapel breakout session were thinking it is okay to dabble in pornography. I tried to tell him they need to look into these 2 that shared because the wives of the men in that room should be defended. After all it was a conference for women in which they could also bring their spouse to get ministry in these breakout sessions. I never thought I would see the day in which preachers/leaders in the church would say it was okay to participate in pornography. What a sin sick world we truly do live in. Church clean up your act, no more playing around and delaying this also. I would ask him 1 more time if he ever shared with the conference leadership what happened that day with the men's breakout session, if he responds "no" to me then I have no reason to be ordained under his ministry is my mind set. I will update you on all of this. So, I once again must repent because I was thinking so rigid. I am a cut and dry sort of a person but in reality, not everything works out like that does it. I am still praying about this ordination.


