I am an avid reader, I really am. I read ministry related books though. So much so that when my mom was visiting, she asked if I had any books to read. I responded I have ministry related books. Needless to say, I had to go to my neighbors to see if she could borrow a book to read until we went to the Christian Publishers Outlet to get some Amish novels for her to read. She is an avid reader also; she finished the book borrowed in a few days. She went home with 1 Amish novel to read in the car and 3 more for future reading delight.
The book I am currently reading is titled, "Letting Go Of The Need To Be Right Experience the Power of Humility." The author is a local Pastor, Jeff Dollar of Grace Center. I have been to this church a few times before. For services after experiencing prophetic team ministry. I truly smell scents (the presence of God scents) wafting in the church atmosphere when I am there and I sit in the back of the sanctuary. The presence of God is in this church. The prophetic teams always give accurate words to me. I may have even shared some of them on this blog. I probably am due to go for prophetic ministry sometime in the near future. As Holy Spirit guides, He provides.
You know I am at a point of not wanting to wait on marriage anymore even though Holy Spirit says it is there for me. Do you ever get like that? Waiting for over 25 years and you tend to say I will settle for something less just to go forward in my life or not get married at all. Marriage takes the connecting of 2 people not one on their own. So, if 1 is ready and the appointed other is not there comes a point to say forget about it and You are God You can send me someone as a replacement and I would be fine with that. See, this time it is not them waiting on me of all the women in the world selected. It is me waiting on the one God hand chose for me. I am the blessing to come forth and not just some woman waiting to be found as a prize. I am refined in my mannerisms, tempered by Holy Spirit grooming me. He teaches me and gives me divine wisdom even if I am going against the proven establishment ministers that have all the accolades and titles given to them. I do not always like standing out on the ledge there by myself proclaiming this or that but I guess that shows that I do not rely on a man to come into my life to give me boldness and respond to Holy Spirit nudges do I?
If anything, it may be a bit of a challenge to get used to a spouse and not just up and run when Holy Spirit says go here and there and do this or that. I sure hope a spouse will be able to accept me as God made me to be and not want me to change my spontaneity or not want me to severely change. I do believe he will be captivated by Jesus shining through me and I am perfectly fine with that. Where did all of this come from today. Maybe because Holy Spirit asks me lately if I will do His will. I respond yes to Him but I just want to go on in life, doing His will. No more delays, no more.
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