What Do You Do When You Do Not Receive The News That You Wanted To Hear But Receive The Opposite News?

Did you ever have a day when it went so smooth and you just seemed to be flowing the way God intended you to flow. You know praying silently on the way to work, then silently praying in the spirit on your lunch hour as you were resting. At work it just did not seem to be a challenge but it flowed almost easy if that makes sense. You do the same routine daily at work but for some reason today it just flowed with ease. Well, that is the kind of day that I had today. I guess I had expectation inside of me to hear the news I wanted to hear in the back of my mind. Waiting with expectancy for the phone call that could change your life. The phone rings and destiny is waiting on the other side of the phone just for you. The moment you were waiting for is now here and you are ready for it. Unless you hear the words you did not expect to hear. In a moment that feeling of "I can do anything" seems to melt away (not totally) just not in the forefront anymore. You take the news with a smile on your face and pleasantry in your voice and you graciously thank the person, then the disconnect. In that moment following the end of the conversation you seem to be perplexed...I did everything right; I said the right things; I know that God was with me when we met and I was led by Holy Spirit. I think it then hits you that reality sets in ever so quick and you begin to question yourself and the hearing from God when He spoke something ever so clear to you just weeks prior.
You even have a brief conversation with Holy Spirit in which you question hearing what you heard and what about God's will for my life; what about sending the angels out to go after what is suppose to be, to get me to where I am suppose to be in destiny. If you want to be really honest like I am sharing with you you then say to God, "I do not want to converse or talk about this right now" I just do not want to when you hear the words that He speaks to me to TRUST HIM. I know about trust for that is how I walk my daily life with the Lord and have done so for many years now. When the only word I hear at times is TRUST that is all I can do because that is all I only know how to do. There comes a time in your life when I believe it is OK to say to your heavenly Father "I just do not want to talk about it now it is too raw to deal with." He never forces Himself on you and He waits for the time when you will say to Him, OK it is time now to discuss.
In the meantime you do not begrudge anyone, family/friends that it seems they are getting all the great breaks and doors opening up for them, prayers that you may have prayed for them on their behalf and happening in their very life. Then the truth comes out and you cry out to God "When is it my turn" I do not have anger just disbelief in that moment. You see this one and that one and their breakthroughs and you begin to doubt if maybe you are not suppose to be where you are right now and how do you back track and get out of it when there have been commitments made. You then say to yourself why am I here right now why am I at the very address you have me living at.
When is it my time to shine for Jesus and let the whole world see what He has done in my life? There just comes a time when you have fasted, prayed, yielded, sacrificed, anointed yourself with anointing oil, done ministry, wrote the blog you were called to write, made the "in faith" phone calls, sent letters of encouragement, gave words of encouragement, set the captives free in ministry, ushered in the presence of God not just at church but even in your own home or while driving in your car. The list could go on and on forever and I suppose there is only one answer. TRUST and that is the very word one must hang onto for God knows the tomorrow's, the future and when the exact timing is just right so He truly will get ALL OF THE GLORY. In the meantime you just learn to deal with hurt and disappointment and continue to know that God has a plan for your life and He knows the ins and outs of this plan for He created it and when the time is just right it will happen so sudden that there will not be room enough to catch your breath for it will swiftly come upon you and one moment you are here doing this and then the next moment destiny opens the door and all you have to do is walk through and step into it.
Do not lose hope or find yourself full of despair for God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son to us and then had to let go in the moments that were His death on earth but then there was the glorious day of resurrection when He rose from the dead and death will no longer hold back those that believe in Jesus and call upon His name for salvation. Where would you rather live forever, heaven or hell? I choose heaven and to live with My Father in heaven and all the saints that have gone before me for all eternity. So, what do I have to do now to remain in this? I have to ask God to forgive my stubbornness and tell Him I am willing to discuss this day with Him. Did He ever leave me NO. Did He ever turn His love away from me NO. Did He stop telling me that He loved me NO so why am I acting like a spoiled child that wants to pout when I do not get my way in my timing? Pretty foolish when you really think about it huh.
You may say to yourself why is she sharing all this stuff with me? It is to show you that I am human and I do feel and find disappointment in my life but I am also sharing with you to hopefully keep you off the wrong path. To not allow a day like mine to bring anger into your heart when all you have to do is share your hurt and disappointment with God. He created you and He already knew what you would be experiencing far in advance of it actually happening. Do not base your life on feelings for they will lead you down a path of destruction, lead your life on FAITH and watch in wonder what God will do and continue to do in your life.

I would not be pleased without ending this writing with something beautiful to share with you. From what I understand the beautiful colored leaves on the trees in the region where I use to live
 have already fallen off the trees from the rain that they had. Well, where I live I am still experiencing the beautiful display of God's creativity wherever I drive or walk for the leaves are still on the trees. This is one of my favorite trees that I get blessed to see daily when I arrive at work. May you enjoy it also. Hang in there and keep trusting in the Lord and He will keep directing your path. Don't forget to enjoy the journey on the way too.