It always seems to be that I miss a step here or there. When looking back I wonder why I couldn't be here or there but I was where I was @ in that moment in time.
You know, you find out after the fact that there was a conference you would have enjoyed but you didn't know about it. I really do tend to be a loner and I do not need to feel like I have to have people around me all the time to be validated. I quite actually like being validated by Jesus. Did you know I fulfilled requirements needed with a ministry to get ordained. I did that in 2014 but never felt the unction to submit paperwork, pay the fee and go to TX to get ordained. Some may want to be validated with a signed document of being ordained and that is ok. Others may not need to feel they need that paper to follow Jesus' leading.
I thought about this recently as I have prior times before and the same answer comes to me via Holy Spirit. He shows me that He teaches me and for whatever reason He shares with me He doesn't want me ordained by a man or woman @ this time in my life. I am not saying that may not change in the future but for now that is to be in my life. I believe that when I get to heaven and see Jesus, He is not going to ask me to show Him my ordination signed document. He wants to know if I followed Him and did the work He called me to fulfill. That is my deepest desire to hear Him & follow where He leads me. To not be afraid to speak when He calls me forth to speak. To be moved by tears while watching live coverage of the Dawsonville revival and praying with others as children are being baptized in the water. Tonight there were a few children with concerns that were in the water. Parents and loved ones believing for the miracle.
Witnessing a strong testimony of a woman that was healed in those very waters a week or 2 ago and comes back to the waters again to testify and be baptized again. Those are the things that move my heart and cause tender tears to flow.
Holy Spirit where would You like me to be; where would You like me to go? As I am composing this I can hear the wind outside howling and know winds of change are coming. I am a free spirit and love to flow with the wind. I guess that is why I go on adventures with Holy Spirit. I do not desire to be a part of the "in crowd" so to speak if that would cause me to be stiffled in the Holy Spirit. I enjoy my freedom far more than being in a group. Yes, I know it is good to dwell with believers but it tends to be believers that strike the harshest words. There are benefits to fellowship with believers, like sharing testimonies and having connections and that is good.
Did you ever consider this ... if you feel as an outsider just maybe God is setting you apart so as to owe no man or woman a debt of some sort. You look to the author and finisher of your life and find contentment in that.
I have found that if you are at peace in your life that what you are doing is pleasing to our Father in heaven. It is nice to share the wonders of God and His awesome love with others and that is why I write and share via this blog.
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