When God Speaks To Your Heart About Something Do Not Be Scared And Run From It. I Did And I Regret It Now.

Let me share with you something I have learned by learning it the hard way. First of all I would like to thank all of you that have read;  continue to read; and those that will read my blog in the future. I have mentioned this before and shared with you that it was a pastor that encouraged me to write this very blog. I have known for many years that I have a passion for writing. I started with writing in journals and then advanced to writing at a keyboard and saving the dated writings. Those were the days leading up to me writing and at times videotaping for this blog. Thank you Pastor Troy for your continual encouragement to me to keep writing the blog. He told me that I should keep writing even if it was for one person to read what was written I was in obedience to Holy Spirit. As of today there have been over 3,000 views from around the world reading what I write. Thank you for all the glory goes to God, for it is He that inspires me to write and to share with you. I have found that I will write on a subject and prior to writing about it I had experiences and seen examples. Once all that I needed to experience and see was just the right amount needed to write then Holy Spirit draws me to write and it is the neatest thing. He creates through me and compiles it with bringing remembrance to my mind and the very moment to add it to the writing. Never take your daily experiences for granted for your today experience just may be able to help someone tomorrow. I recently saw a show and the person wrote in a journal and a newspaper journalist asked this question of her, "Would you continue to write even if you knew no one would read it?" I found myself saying "yes" to that for it really is a passion of mine. He asked that question to let her know that she was a writer because she answered yes to that question.
A few years ago a great opportunity was presented to me. Things were good and I felt inside that was the place where I was to truly be. Something happened in which I got nervous and I stepped in to alter what should have been. You see, Holy Spirit spoke something to my heart and I was just not willing to deal with it then. I am not sure if it was in part that I thought maybe the enemy was trying to speak something to me to get me off the path that God laid before me or if I was not ready to receive what God had for me. How many of you out there tend to botch things up when you are so close to destiny? Not to sabotage yourself intentionally, it is a nervous reaction to guard you from failure. I knew enough after stepping back for a few weeks that it was God and I sought out counsel for it. The dilemma I created was I had to back track and save face and come up with a reason why I shunned it the first time. That little making up of an excuse that sounded good was not a good thing to do. It did not bring glory to God it just sounded good. I then began to feel conviction from Holy Spirit to share the main reason why I pulled back to begin with. It was a partial coming clean so to speak. It was not until recently when I questioned something in someones life that Holy Spirit reminded me that I was in the same boat for not sharing completely the real reason. I am not good at this at times, how do you share with someone what God spoke to your heart without them thinking this is overload with what you are saying Holy Spirit spoke to your heart.
Be cautious not to make the same mistake I made. God speaks to your heart and you then deny it, even if it is only in part does that place you then into the category of being a liar? God cannot lie and if He spoke it it is, so it must be you that is the liar for not believing it. Either He spoke it to you or not. Until I realized this recently I was in the category of those that will burn in the lake of fire for liars are in that very category.  It would have been so much easier for me to just say it up front and not have to wait years to say it. I really loved what I was doing back then and because of me being cautious I prolonged me operating in what came to me naturally. I put off meeting people that God already had lined up for me to speak and share with. I missed valuable training I would have received. I missed success I would have attained. Everything was postponed and did I then cause myself to fall back on God's timeline He had set aside just for me? I would venture to say yes all for what? Some notion of fear. Why when you are in those moments you cannot start speaking to the enemy Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world?
When you share from your heart with another what Holy Spirit has spoke to your heart they will know and just know that you heard from God, they really will. Do not do like I did and run but never tire of sharing what God has put in your heart OK. I try to write and share with you so you do not have to experience these things. On the other hand I also share with you the valuable things I have learned to help you along on your journey also. Things that have been taught to me throughout the years that I have found to be true and helpful to you also. Please forgive me if I ever missed a moment to share because I was tired, hungry, missing home, or overwhelmed with life that day or thinking about what I have to do in the near future too.
Be blessed and do not hold a grudge OK. Do not let the sun go down with anger in you heart against one who maybe panicked in the moment and that moment decision caused you to possibly be thrown off of your life timeline with destiny with God. We are not totally spiritual we are human too. That is no excuse but it is true. We would all love to walk in the spirit 24/7 but at times we mess up and have to ask forgiveness of God and from others too. Be gentle with these people when they ask your forgiveness for there will always be those in your life that will be gentle with you when you ask their forgiveness of you.
How do you re-capture what was lost? I do not have the answer to that sorry. At least not for now. Maybe Holy Spirit or another person will tell me the answer to that.