I was sharing with an acquaintance how there is a need out there in the USA to create a department to look into the church and weed out and restore those doing wrong either within their ministries or to trusting donors. More and more keeps coming out in the news of this church/ministry or that doing not good things and ungodly things going on. I would imagine if the government found out some of this stuff and then demoted them from their tax-exempt status they just might listen and take heed to what is lawful and not deceptive. The acquaintance reminded me of the separation of government and the church but even with that, why can't there be some sort of committee that looks into allegations and does the research in regard to the church doing bad things in the USA. This most recent one being exposed caused me to become triggered when hearing the taped conversation presented in a Roys Report that is ongoing and revealing bits and pieces almost daily. I began to wonder if the people when walking down the hallway to the office the meeting was taking place in got that sick feeling inside of them as they were heading to the office in which the meeting was being held. The reason I am wondering that because I experienced years ago while being a member in a church in Ohio. An older in age church minister/counselor invited me to a meeting @ the church, she said at the time it was to catch up and led me to believe it was only with her and I the meeting would take place. As I was walking down the hallway I felt as though a noose was around my neck it was the oddest thing. You want to know why I felt that sick feeling inside of me, it was Holy Spirit warning me without me even knowing I was not going to be in a meeting with just her and I. I thought it was odd that we did not meet in her office that day. As I walk into the meeting office there, I saw 2 men. 1 was a staff minister in which I was actually taking a leadership class with, and the other man was a church prophet. Along with this female minister.
Do you know why I was called into this not truthful meeting in which I thought was just going to be between me and her? The meeting was now 3 against 1 (me being the one) I was told if I did not start praising/worshiping in church like a lady/woman then an usher would have me sit down. I was on fire for Jesus then and for some reason my anointing is when I pick up percussion instruments and play them during worship. I was shocked and began to cry and looked at the one minister and said but I did my homework you asked us to do in class. I searched in both the New and Old Testament to find all scriptures pertaining to what God called me to do, a worshiper. I was also told that my worship was distracting. I was a bit feisty back then and responded with why people are being distracted by me shouldn't they have their eyes closed in worship and not looking around. Get the point. I remember this as clear as day, it was on a Tuesday evening this meeting took place. It was the same night women's prayer gathered in the sanctuary, and no sooner did I leave that meeting I went right to the sanctuary and asked the women to pray for me. If I remember correctly, one of the gentlemen in that meeting room had some sort of medical condition that took place shortly after that. I am a mature woman of God and forgave each one of them back then. I am not bringing this up to dredge up that past stuff. I am just sharing how hearing that sabotage type of talk this couple experienced recently reminded me of the same sort of deception taking place in the church.
Do you wonder why today I am most cautious when I go to church/ministry gatherings I seek approval before worship starts to play the percussion instruments because it was a few years ago ... while attending a Belonging Co Church service. Literally the female pastor one Sunday came up to me during worship & hugged me and told me she was glad I was there worshiping with them. A couple of weeks later when visited again I thought to myself who is tapping me on the shoulder, I don't know anyone at this church. It was a security person telling me I have freedom to worship but I cannot use the rain stick percussion instrument because it was distracting others. Hum, I rarely attended this church and found it a bit odd that when I was there before with friends of mine, my one friend played my rain stick and not one person came up to her and asked her to not play it during worship.
As I was pondering this recently during prayer with Holy Spirit this committee title sort of dropped inside of me: DOMA=Department od Ministry Abuse, to clean up the church. Why are not ministers, priests, etc. having to go to jail when such heinous crimes in some instances are being committed. They should not be exempt from our laws and maybe if they had their exempt status removed for a season in the churches that do wrong, then just maybe, just maybe they would behave like a church of God. There I go thinking out loud again.
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