I posted a blog entry of my experience with the Poor Clare nun. I also went on a retreat weekend at this abbey I am including the video of. God spoke and I do beleive He still does speak to people regardless of your religion you were brought up in. Did you catch the term "religion?" It is not about a religion it is about a relationship you cultivate with Jesus. During this weekend I had the honor/favor of God to get a set appointment with one of the Brothers of this Abbey and share my Holy Spirit expereinces with him. I think I actually sent this Brother a correspondence follow up letter when I arrived back home. Let's see if I journaled about this experience. I am being led to search for a journal I do beleive I wrote about this.
Abbey of the Genesee
I had to pause for a bit to search through my journals. Guess what I found? I knew I wrote a letter to Sister Gwen Shaw by the urging of John Rowe. Found my written copy of the letter (my rough draft I like to refer to it as.) I wrote that 7/7/1997 and had no idea who this lady even was I just followed instruction given to me by John Rowe who was preaching that week at church. I may share the draft letter at another time. I also found out that when I shared I gave a 0.50 offering at church and then was blessed with receiving 85.00 at the altar, well the offering amount was 5.00. Good thing I journal and kept records of important happenings in my life do you agree?
S, I do not have the actual letter draft i sent to Fr. Jerry but i found what I journaled about the abbey retreat experience and the appointment time I was designated to speak with him. According to my journal entries I attended this retreat at the Abbey 3/18/1995.
I wrote this 3/28/1995 @ 10:30AM:
"I completed my retreat at The Abbey on the Genesee, it was a peaceful weekend-I wrote, prayed and met a very special priest, Fr. Jerry (who was a Catholic priest that worked with abused & alcoholics) and left to become a Trappist Monk. The first words Fr. Jerry spoke when he talked to our group were about God's voice and direction that is in each of us. Known as our intuition or "gut instinct"- and how-when you are doing the work of the Lord-you ay be on your own at times-going against the grain or the way others are doing things-you will be questioned and at times-talked about or even mocked. His word just confirmed for me that I am hearing the Lord and doing His work. Thank yo for insight-I love you. Only 2 were able to sign up with Fr. Jerry to speak with him-I was one of them-I told him a brief synopsis of my story, he listened with compassion at the end of our session he asked me to pray for him & that he'll pray for me. What a good & blessed soul this man is. On Sunday I wrote him a letter and enclosed in it the prayer to Holy Spirit-I also let him know he should continue his writing & counseling of others-this is the "gift" that he was given. I shared with him that before I pick up the pen to write I always visualize my heart-to the mind-to the ears (so that I hear the right words-I also ask to remove my ego and opinion-to let the Holy Spirit wisdom come through to me) to the hand and the pen. I also shared with him-when I speak (on the phone-a brief meeting, etc.) I visualize from the heart to the mind-to the lips. That way I'm ensured that the true words that are meant to be heard by others-do not get mixed up with my own ego.
Well guess what? Holy Spirit is directing me to share the letter composed and sent to Gwen Shaw. Now mind you, I never heard from this woman or even Benny Hinn but I followed Holy Spirit direction in my life. Do you suppose there is to be an actual book published or may I suggest the blog is the book indirectly reaching the very people it is suppose to reach. I wonder why no one leaves comments for me to read on my blog, I sure tend to ponder on things in a fleeting moment. The thought comes to me then it goes away as swiftly as it came to me. Too deep for me to ponder on today.
Can you see the blue Dodge Stealth parked in the front of the Abbey? That was my car and I so loved driving that car and had to turn it in as part of my divorce. My kids would say that is not a car a mom should be driving and so I got a van when I had to turn in the Stealth, I guess that in their eyes was more of a Mom vehicle.
A few days ago I was in search of notes I wrote in a bible and thought I was going to find one thing but I found this hidden treasure in its place. God's timing is in all of this for this particular adventure. This was read a few days prior to a webinar class I was to partake in. I did not know what Dr. Mark Chironna was going to share with us until he began to share that day. As I compose this it still amazes me in the timing of God. I wrote this 6/22/1996 @ 8:45AM in an open section of the bible just before the New Testament. I am recalling about my scriptural journey with the Lord. The easy way to share would be for me to just take a picture and place it in this blog but I am going to type it out for you because not everyone knows how to read cursive right? I find it very interesting that the color of ink I chose to write with that very day was using a red ink pen to write with.
"I started my scriptural journey with the Lord 141 days ago-February 3, 1996. How beautiful-on the 3rd of the month-in my life 3 is pronounced-for me it represents the Trinity- The Father-The Son-The Holy Spirit amen praise be the Lord now and forever. Amen-I say amen. On this journey I am to read 1 chapter per day-when it was commenced I was guided by a Spiritual Director to start with The New Testament. Amen-I say amen-praise be the Lord now and forever-the ever loving & precious Lord that died on that very cross & shed His precious blood so that we all may live and be set free from the evil and destruction in this world of ours. Come Holy Spirit fill the open hearts that await your guidance. Amen."
I was writing things of this nature and getting Holy Spirit insight as still being a Catholic in this period of time in my life, you do know that right? Imagine that, a Catholic woman receiving Holy Spirit revelation. A foundation that brings me somehow to where I am today. Built upon the scriptures, that alone deserves a great big AMEN, HALLELUJAH, GLORY TO GOD, PRAISE THE LORD. Back to my journey now ok. Beleive it or not but Mark spoke on the very subject of spiritual directors. Let me share bits and pieces of notes I wrote down during this webinar. They are my personal notes I penned during this experience so that is why I feel comfortable sharing. I take notes like the fashion I receive insights from Holy Spirit. Certain things jog my memory to then be in search of other expereinces to incorporate into my writing. This particular day James shares how he went to a Franciscan Prayer Center in which there was no speaking during this visit of his. Meaning the Franciscans probably took a vow of no speaking. I get that concept because I was sent to a nun who also took this same vow in regard to not speaking. I was brought there because the Catholic church thought I should meet with this nun and share my expereinces I was having with Holy Spirit with her. I looked up the church and I will share a link with you because that is where I would go at times and get great inspiration/words I would write in my journal sitting in this Catholic church. It used to be called St. Paul's Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament in Cleveland, Ohio when I would go there. It has since been named The Conversion of St. Paul Shrine. This is where the Poor Clare nuns reside. When I met with the older in age nun that particular day I recall a lattice type of divider was between the two of us and I just shared my testimony that was in my heart to share that day. I recall this nun had a tear roll down her cheek and at the end of our appointment she motioned me to come closer to the partition/divider and she gave me a kiss on my cheek through the lattice opening. I recall leaving there thinking to myself she did not say one word to me but I do beleive she knew of these type of expereinces I was having. In her silent way she confirmed what was happening to me was a validation when I saw the tear roll down her cheek and she gave me a gentle kiss on my cheek. God sure does work in mysterious ways doesn't He. When I share the link with you, you will then see the beauty I saw when I would enter this church. Again, God used a Catholic woman in a Catholic church setting to bring forth Holy Spirit inspiration. Do you get it yet? He will use your growing up years in Jesus as a strong part of your very testimony if you will just let Him do that. Back to the notes I took that day during the webinar.
"I sat on my patio enjoying the fresh air & sunshine during the webinar. I attached my speakers-just maybe someone walking by will glean a little too. This was a great insight that brought comfort to me because I tend to have an artistic flare, "Many true prophets are 1st artists/musicians." Mark shares from 1 Samuel 3:1-21 about the Lord calling Samuel. Speak Lord for your servant is listening is spiritual direction interpersonal relationship in which we learn how to grow... I also notated in my notes how 2 days ago I pulled out my Catholic bible & look what I wrote at the beginning of the New Testament. Mark goes on to share how God ordained there will be spiritual directors-they are to be established in God. Spiritual Directors help perfect our vision & awareness how to abide in God. There is a 3 part encounter and all 3 are essential for this process:1. spiritual director 2. directee 3. Jehovah. We must practice forgiveness when being mentored by someone. Whatever we don't deal with in adolescence comes back up in our 30-60's (age wise that is) Holy Spirit brings back to deal with to grow us up. I also notated again how I pulled out this catholic bible 2 days ago & it sits on my coffee table. One final note I wrote down was Forgive, bless but it does not mean you give your approval to things your children do or decisions they made."
I am filled to the brim from this particular webinar and I go to the store. As I am sitting in the parking lot and I am speaking with my son on the phone. Listen to this Holy Spirit "in sync" moment I am going to share with you ... I started to share about this webinar and the guest speaker and I mention no name of the person all I say is remember the vacation we took to Disney on Mother's Day? He blurts out Mark Chironna to me without me ever mentioning his name. He remembered going to his church with me that Mother's Day and he remembered the red rose they gave to mothers, he also remembered the elevator ride we shared with Mark at the Orlando airport. Do you see how God uses certain mile markers in your life for such a time as this. The question being ... do you allow yourself the opportunities to first of all have these journeys with Jesus and then recall them to share with others, even though they may have been yesterday experiences to bring forth to share in today experiences?
The Poor Clare Sisters: A peek inside the cloister
http:www.thepoorclares.com/st-paul-shrine.html
https://clevelandhistorical.org/items/show/758
I must admit to you that since this church location is in the outer skirts of downtown Cleveland I would always silently pray my car would not be stolen in the parking lot or I did not meet up with any type of trouble walking down the sidewalk to and from the church. God was faithful and nothing of that nature ever happened to me.
I just finished watching live stream with Church on the North Coast while exercising on my bike. Yes, you can worship Jesus in your home. I then turned on live streaming of Family Worship Center to a song I knew. I began to sing in my living room. I searched for that song and I will post it within this blog. I fell asleep last night in the living room. I went to bed and of course I could not get back to sleep. I read scripture then I felt led to pick up a book and continue reading in it. Jane Hamon's book "Discernment The Essential Guide To Hearing The Voice Of God." After reading chapter 7 there is an activation at the close of the chapter. In the wee hours of the dawn of a new day I found myself following through with the instruction: "I invite you to shut your eyes and still your natural senses for just a moment. Activate your spirit-man by praying in the Spirit for a couple of minutes, and ask God to let you know He is there. Then be still. Sense Him. Feel His warmth. Listen to His voice. Learn to discern the presence of the Lord in your life, and it will strengthen the reality of your intimate walk with Him every day. " I did this and He spoke with me. I found myself with a smile upon my face which happens to me at times when His presence is there. I then found myself crying because that also happens to me in the presence of God. He spoke to me and assured me of things to come forth and to not give up. He knows this daughter of His and that she can be stubborn at times and impatient too. I said Yes to His speaking to me. I then continued on reading into chapter 8 and finished reading about Prophetic Messenger Angels. I then fall asleep and I am given a dream. A dream of confirmation to what God spoke to me earlier.
You know there was a time when I thanked Him for sheltering me at home it will be 1 week today that I have not gone out into the community where I reside. I really do need to get to a store to get a few groceries. When you no longer have it in the pantry or refrigerator isn't that fascinating you begin to crave it. For me it is navel oranges and cara cara oranges that are on sale for 0.98 a pound this week at Sprouts Market. My heart was tender to the fact that He has been keeping me nestled up with Him in my home receiving from Him and then sharing with all of you. That is a testimony, that truly is do you agree? I have to share another older journal entry when I was a really devout Catholic. You may be wondering to yourself why did she do that or do that? Simply because I was exercising what I knew to the best of my ability in that very season in my life. I have grown from that point in my life to realize what I thought were words given to me from Mary the mother of Jesus were really Holy Spirit and Jesus speaking to me. Do you think I have grown in my spiritual walk throughout the years. I trust you would agree that I have. This particular journal entry experience took place at a Catholic church.
I happened to notice a few misspelled words in this journal entry. Imagine that, I am not perfect and I am still growing in excellence in Jesus. No better place to be for me.
We Will Ride - Brownsville Worship @ Brownsville Assembly Of God, Lindell Cooley
Remember how I shared the other day about the dream I had with the animal procession @ a wedding? Just prior to that dream I had another warning/informative dream in which something was revealed to me. In this dream the subject of attention was a slim sized pink snake. It was not long in length and it was very slim in stature. This particular pink snake was being held by a man and I did touch the snake and felt it was soft in texture. I had no further interest in this pink snake but let me share with you what I noticed. Men were intrigued by this pink snake and wanted to touch it, they were enthralled by this snake. Then the dream went into the other animal dream. Do you know what is interesting? This week I was in the book of Zechariah and I read the chapter that day that I notated reading the same day in 2014.
There is no such thing as a good witch versus a bad witch you do know that right? This is the same concept, just because it is pink in color does not make it less dangerous and conniving. Men do not be fooled by the snake charmers out there trying to take you away from your divine destiny. The package may look pretty on the outside but you better really examine the fruit coming forth from this woman. It may be a bit too late once the package is then opened up to discover false this and false that is the true essence in that woman. Test the fruit and character before venturing to open up the pretty, decorated package only to discover you have been duped by the best liar, satan himself in disguise.
I have no idea why I am sharing this today and I did not write about it the other day.
Women out there working for the enemy Stop it NOW. You know when you are found out the enemy has to repay 7 times what was stolen and you still have time to repent. Turn from your deceptive ways and ask forgiveness from Jesus. Turn your heart and life over to Him and let Him guide you away from sin and into your divine destiny. The choice is truly yours and no one can make it for you. Final thought is you have 2 places to live for eternity either heaven or hell. Read the book of Revelation in the bible if you would like a further explanation of what your eternity life will be like in hell forever. Jesus died on a cross and rose from the dead 3 days later so you would not have to live under the grip of satan now or in the future. Choose wisely whom you will serve this day.
Today I read Zechariah 12. I have notecards and I found this one that kind of looks similar to the momma bird that was visiting me on my patio:
I shared with you all that I volunteered as a lunch mom at a Catholic school my children attended. It was part of the tuition agreement that a parent(s) volunteer 20 hours, I chose the lunch program. I am going to type this out so I do not have to strike out names etc. from actually just taking a picture of the pages in this journal entry. The time frame was 9/28/1995 @ 1:30PM when I entered this into my journal:
"I am being guided to volunteer at ___ with the lunch program (they can use the help and I need to fulfill my 20 hour obligation.) The children are wonderful-I see goodness in all of them-even when they act out on occasion. Children truly are gifts from the Lord and they should be treated with kindness, love and respect-as so they should also treat each other and adults. I find myself anymore (through the guidance of the Holy Spirit) praying for these children (including my children also) at ___-for peace & love in their lives-that they are shown kindness & love & that they feel safe when they are with their caregivers while at school (those with whom we entrust our children with.) Blessed Mother I see nervousness in some children-I saw fear and apprehension the other day-words are spoken from another mother 'there really is no scandal going on here.' There is much sternness in some that work this program & then there are the few that are perplexed by seeing such ways that situations are handled and why are some grades really watched and other grades are not. I know that there should be order & rules to follow at lunch time-there should be an even balance-this is the children's time to relax and eat-if there are reasons for this-explain them-that is fine. The children that need the supervision the most-there is no authorative figure around ___ & the young ones are always being corrected-talked to in a manner that is not loving & caring & nurturing-it reminds me of something you'd see on tv-run like a boot camp. One of my children vomited a couple of times at lunch & seems to be fine on the days I volunteer-now today-I checked with the nurse-almost at 12:30PM they came to her feeling like they had to vomit-they did not vomit-their temperature was fine-12:30PM is when lunch is over & back to school-oddly enough this occurred on a day when I did not volunteer-lunch was in the classroom today. I went to the Shrine today to burn 2 candles in thanksgiving for me completing the novena's to the Holy Spirit & St. Anthony. When I was at the shrine I stopped in the gift shop to get a bottle for blessed water and a candle to give to the woman doing the income taxes. I felt very strongly to ask Sr. (Sister) to please pray for my children & all the children at their school-that I saw fear & apprehension the other day with the older boys that were acting up & were to be written up & taken to room 21-one asked me to please say he didn't do anything wrong he didn't want to go to that room-Sr. told me to get some blessed water & place it at the entrance to that room-she said this is where the fear is coming from-if there is anything happening-it will all come out-she said don't scatter the water here & there go directly to that room. So, I went to the office and asked if I could see room 21 & they looked at me & said it's an ___ grade classroom-I said I would not disturb them-that there were children who had fear the other day at the lunch room-the principal disputed me and said they are punished in her office-I said ok-& I walked up to room 21 & took a little of the shrine blessed water & just made the sign of the cross there-as I entered the school I had the blessed water on my hands & it was also on my hands as I left the school & touched the door. A few days ago I knew that the children needed the blessed water-but I didn't know how to get it to them-I kept thinking-offer it to them at lunch-in the Lord's time. He guided me through another on how to get the water where it needed to go-so the Blessed Mother-the Mother of all creatures could do her work with the children-with her children. I also prayed that her mantle of protection be with the children. This was to be done-for it just flowed-like so many things in my life-where the Holy Spirit works through you & with you-the doors seem to open to do His work. Thank you again Holy Spirit for strengthening me with Your gifts through the novena and St. Anthony for assisting me in finding my blue topaz-as I woke up Sunday morning I could see in my mind exactly where it was under the seat (drivers) in my Stealth & sure enough it was there. Also on that same day I went to the Lutheran church for the installation of their new pastor-I knew that I would meet ___ (the beautiful woman I spoke with when the kids applied for Camp ___) I turned to this woman that was with an elderly woman & I could hear the words ask "do you know ___" as I was speaking the words changed "are you ___." I've longed to meet her in person so I could thank her my children both loved the Camp__ experience. Thank you thank you thank you-when I go on Your guidance & the fear is removed-things truly happen-it is all in Your timing."
Let me jump this ahead a bit now to 12/18/1995 5:45PM:
"Through my prayers I was guided to purchase a very special Christmas gift for the children of ___ school. I went to one of my favorite places where peace and love just radiates __ shrine- I enrolled the children for 1 year at the shrine 52 masses will be said for the children...in their card I was given these words... Dear children of ___ school, Know that God's love is in each and everyone of your hearts. may peace and blessings be bestowed upon you and your families during this most joyous season...the birth of Christ. I then signed my name to the card. The president of student council read the card over the p.a announcement system so the children knew of the masses. As I write this I can't help but feel sad-my work will be coming to an end soon with the children at this school...the Lord has other work for me and I must be open to His leading. Rejoice, rejoice, rejoice-the Lord has come and He will return again. He prepares us all for the 2nd glorious coming...all sing & praise our Lord...for as we await this coming you can truly be open to Him in your hearts and lives. He waits in love for your prayer and asking of Him to enter into your life...all I can say is that it is ever sweet when you give up your will and accept the will of God. May we all be blessed and pray for many to open their hearts to the Lord-He turns no one away. Amen, sing with praise."
A side note, I received a card thanking me for looking out for them at school and a few of the older children signed it and to this day I still have that card.
I was on my exercise bike again this morning and I opened the blinds on my patio door. Sure enough, momma bird came to the patio floor again today. She did not approach the door today but went under a patio chair while I sang to her today. Actually, it was me singing to Jesus this morning. Before I went to bed last night I was viewing a video on my phone. You know how it recommends another video to view? Well this time it was James Goll preaching about 5-6 years ago at King of Glory Church. I beleive I have the church name correct. The church was The Worship Center. The conference was King of Glory II Conference. He preached with a cap on his head in this video. I really wish he would get back out there and preach in churches again. I know the anointing is there when he shares via his studio but there is an extraordinary presence of God that comes upon the people when he is in a church setting. I do beleive it is in the gathering of the saints and how they all worship Jesus together. I am telling you that there is a special heightened anointing that comes upon this man of God when he is in a church/conference setting in person. I cannot explain it in words I guess you have to experience it to understand what I am talking about. So, as I was resting I watched this video. He sings in this video also.
This morning on my exercise bike I found myself singing/humming and even praying in tongues to the melody of "What the World Needs Now"; "You Are So Beautiful" & "Somewhere Over the Rainbow." From me singing to Jesus that then led into speaking scripture verses all while exercising. Imagine that. So this afternoon I pulled up another video from the same church 5 years ago and the rich presence of God filled my place and it drew tears to my eyes. That it caused me to pause the video and write. I miss most during this covid stuff, gathering with believers and worshipping Jesus. I am a worshiper and I worship but I want to attend conferences again with the rich teaching/preaching and alive worship.
Where I reside I told you I love it here. Did you know I have not been outside of my residence since Sunday when the freezing rain began to fall in my region? Correction, I was going to venture out to my car the other night until a neighbor of mine told me how they fell on the ice and I decided it was not worth me going to my car and it could wait. I was prepared as if I was still in the northern state in which I grew up in with real winters filled with snow. Winter coat on with hat, scarf, gloves and even my Sporto boots ready to tackle the cold. I am glad I did not because there was a blessing waiting for me if I stayed home. The property manager offered for someone to pick up my mail for me and drop it off and to take out my garbage for me to the compactor if I needed it. That is true customer service is that not. I was up early and I still had some David's cookies break and bake chocolate chip cookie dough in the freezer. You guessed right, I baked up some cookies and packaged them to give to the person doing the kind acts of kindness to me and I blessed them with the cookies. It is so true to have a thankful heart, it truly is. Thankfulness comes from a heart filled with love and compassion. Reach out to someone today and share an act of kindness with them today. I am sure you can find at least 1 person right.
That is the word sung twice together to a generic tune this morning. I was up early enough that I was able to use my exercise bike before getting ready for work. I usually do not open the blinds on my patio door that early but for some reason Holy Spirit said open them before I got on the exercise bike and I said ok and did. As I was exercising I kept humming and singing these two words together Andante, Andante and then I would hum in between the set and kept singing them softly. I looked up and saw a bird sitting on the patio ledge. The ledge had a mixture of snow and ice on it. I kept singing and it looked at me. Kept on singing and then it went to the patio ground. The more I sang it kept walking closer to the door towards the music I would sing. I noticed this bird had an orangish/reddish brown type of breast area but it was rather large in size. I thought to myself this bird is pregnant and really looked full like ready to give birth fullness. It walked over to a chair I had on the patio and then flew back on the patio ledge. You will not beleive what I saw next. I could actually see this bird trying to push out a white colored egg. I was really finishing up on my bike and I did not stop to take a picture. I thought maybe I was seeing this not correctly at first. I would see a portion of the white egg trying to come out, then it would retract a little and then another push and I would see more of the white egg again. I was concerned for this bird to lay this egg or maybe even more than one egg on top of the ice/snow mixture and not in a nice bird nest for it to be nurtured and then eventually hatch the baby birds. I thought to myself, you don't want to deliver that egg on top of the ice/snow rail would the baby bird eventually die there? No sooner did I think that very thought the bird flew away.
I then researched and it is fine to feed birds believe it or not egg shells and sesame seeds. I had both and I put some outside for the birds. I do not know if they will eat it or not but it is the thought that counts right. If the weather was a bit better I would have loved to see that momma bird birth her baby bird eggs. Oh, the definition of andante: "especially as a direction at a moderately slow tempo."
Guess what? Prior to me getting up I had a dream in which I was at a wedding of a relative. It was outdoors and there was a grand animal procession with a elephant leading the wedding march procession down the aisle with a child (relative) on top of the elephant and my aunt who is now with the Lord in heaven was walking beside this great big elephant giving out silver spoons to people. I was sitting with one of my children on my lap (they were as if they were a child again) and I looked to my right and saw people feeding birds it looked like with bird seed/feed. I got up and had breakfast and oddly enough I had eggs this morning before exercising today. See, Holy Spirit already had my bird watching/observation adventure already set up for me. The question is would I respond to His gentle voice nudging me to open the patio door blinds before I exercised. We all have choices to make don't we. Are you choosing wisely in your life? If not, ask forgiveness of Jesus and then do choose wisely. I am being reminded of something my dad use to say. Once you make a choice and you follow through on that choice there is no going back to undo it. Even if you only have a split second to decide if you are going to do something or not, choose wisely.
You know what? I wanted to get on my bike again this evening and did so. There is something about this word 'andante' because I found myself singing those two words again this evening but I would sing in tongues in between those two words, interesting, very interesting. You do know this word is in reference to music.
When reading 2 of my journals yesterday I came across a presentation Holy Spirit helped me put together when I was asked by friends of mine to share @ their church youth retreat. Trust me, I had doubts before sharing time. I shared these doubts with my friends when I asked them if they could share what I wrote in advance for me. They turned me down and said that Holy Spirit gave me the words and I should share them. I did, and let me take you on the journey I shared with kids that ages ranged from 10 1/2 years old through teenagers and the chaperones also. Would you like to go on this journey with me? I think the easiest way is for me to share actual pages in my journals of my actual writing if I may. This was really so creative how Holy Spirit showed me to put this together. The music He showed me to play; the candle I burned; instructing the youth to go outdoors and listen to Holy Spirit for He will speak to you. This was a great adventure for me and my daughter that was also a part of this journey. Do you see the importance of keeping journals, they are timelines of reference. The actual retreat presentation took place the later part of April, 1996 with a Methodist church group. Imagine this a pretty devout Catholic woman that would turn Pentecostal with Holy Spirit guidance. I hope you know how to read cursive because I write in cursive in my journals. You will see notations of direction in my writing so I knew where to go next, sorry you may have to do a little figuring out to connect the dots ok. Happy adventure I bless you with:
I am now going to share my journal thoughts/recap of the retreat with you if I may. I wrote this 5/1/1996:
This may sound a bit like the music I played @ the retreat, God is good, God is faithful & God is love:
Pachelbel's Canon in D -- Soothing Music with Ocean surf
Final closing thought, one of my journals I purchased the very first page I had all attending the retreat to place their names & ages in my journal and I told them I would pray for them each time I read this journal. A practice I continue this very day.
I lived in this quaint community for many years. Blesses my heart to see this video. I have seen the lake frozen like this and then a few months later full of life. As this video opens up you will see the lagoons area. I used to go to the Main Street Beach and write in my journal there. At Christmas time they used to offer free of charge, horse drawn covered cart tours of the community. I learned a bit of the history of the community while participating in one of these tours. One of the ice cream establishments used to be the local funeral parlor. The very small in size current comfort station used to be the local jail. Obviously that was many years ago. The Vermilion River used to honor decorated boats for the Lighted Boat Parade at one of the local festivals. I had the honor of being one of the judges one year for that lighted boat parade. The Vermilion River feeds into Lake Erie. I love the Lighthouse by The Main Street Beach. Years ago the USPS had stamps that were of lighthouses, please bring back a series of lighthouses again USPS. Some of the natural broken ice sections almost look like they can be a Chihuly sculpture what do you think?
Apparently I did and I must have liked it in the 1990's. I was going through 2 of my journals yesterday and stumbled upon a journal entry in which I refer to that cassette tape. I apparently listened to side 1 of it the day I wrote about it. You know me I had to search for the song and listen to it. I was in search of a particular journal entry in which I shared as an action step I would take after viewing a webinar. I was going to search my journals for a particular entry and post on my blog. James Goll was sharing about a dream he had recently of Jesus on the cross. At that moment he shared that, Holy Spirit jogged my memory of that particular journal entry. I found it and read it and per Holy Spirit direction it is to remain within the binder walls of that journal. Not for publication so I obey. I wrote it on 8/17/1996 @ 12:45PM. I can share this much per Holy Spirit prompting me ... That particular day I went to church (Catholic church that is) I received the eucharist and went to confession that day also at church. On the drive there I prayed 9 sets of Our Father, Hail Mary & Glory Be. After mass I prayed another 9 sets in thanksgiving. I told you all I was a very devout Catholic woman in this season of my life back then. I was also devout to Mary (the mother of Jesus) and there was a phone number at the time you could dial to listen to Mary's message. I beleive at the time it was connected to the messages given in regard to Medjugorje if I am not mistaken. I actually wrote the phone number I dialed in that journal, but there is no area code I listed with the phone number. It was after I got off the phone my dog became a bit anxious & kept climbing on my chest as to protect me (it was a little dog, a miniature pincher with the most beautiful shade of auburn colored hair.) I became overwhelmed with the presence of The Trinity & exclaimed this out loud-once the words were spoken my dog laid down beside me ever so restful & I began to feel the incredible heaviness inside my heart & overwhelmed with tears & sobbing (I kept thinking-the feeling that only a mother can experience after she's given birth to her child and as she grows & knows her child-& the love deepens then the child is taken away.) After crying so hard & loud in my mind I was shown Christ Jesus upon the cross ...
I just pulled up the song list for the Neil Diamond "Tennessee Moon" I know a song I really liked from that cassette, "Marry Me." I am going to see if I can find the song list and pick a song you may like from it ok.
Was not able to pull up the listings to listen to the songs as a group so I will share 2 of the songs ok.
Tennessee Moon
Marry Me
Are you following this timeline? I was prompted to read through 2 journals yesterday 2/13/2021. I read about a cassette tape that I wrote about and then today is Valentine's Day in the USA. I am sharing sweet love ballads today. Only Holy Spirit could orchestrate this. I actually had a great day witnessing to a person at a local retail outlet in the neighborhood yesterday to start off my day 2/13/2021. It centered around the amount $5.55. I was doing a few errands in the morning and I had 1 more stop to make, the post office. I was heading out of the area to the actual post office the other side of town until ... Holy Spirit says to go to the local postal outlet station I used to go to all the time & said ok. I heard Holy Spirit tell me the amount of postage stamps to place on the package in advance of taking it to the post office. I placed 6 stamps on the envelope. The clerk weighs the envelope and tells me the amount of postage I owed. I had to remind them to don't forget to take off the 6 postage stamp amount already on the envelope. She totaled up that amount and then subtracted it from the total owed and it came out to $5.55. I then picked up on the triple 5's and my spirit leapt with GRACE. I shared that with the clerk and explained the 5's 3 times was grace three times and I liked that number. We talked a bit more and she shared how she did not know that from going to church. I shared with her that the only reason I knew that is because of books/research when I have prophetic dreams and I would not have known that if I did not have those sources. She shared an amazing testimony of a time when she was at church and she gave what she had in an offering and the church received I beleive it was 1,000.00 and the church shared the amount of money with the congregation, she received 100.00 from that church. Great testimony isn't that. When was the last time you heard of a church getting a donation/offering and then sharing it with their congregation? She shared how her birthday was the day after Valentine's Day and I spoke a prophetic blessing over her, that the entire year will be filled with grace for her. I then went about my day knowing Holy Spirit set that encounter up for me and the postal clerk. Would either of us have been blessed if I did not respond to the little prompting of Holy Spirit, I would venture to say NO.
All day long I was not feeling quite myself and I did not eat much that day and that is what caused me to go to the guest bedroom and pull out 2 of my journals. I then watched two movies in between. I forgot how comfortable that guest room really is. Maybe I made a mistake and chose the wrong bedroom as the master bedroom. No, I did what I was to do and as I want a get away I have the spare bedroom.
Lesson in all of this today ... listen to Holy Spirit and follow His prompts. A person in need of a blessing may be waiting on the blessing needed. If you do not respond to Holy Spirit you then missed out on being the bearer of good news and blessing too.
One more thought, I also shared with the postal clerk of a time when I was blessed to receive an offering into my very hands. A smaller in size church was in revival. I found on the local high school track while walking 0.50 and picked it up. I went to the church and I placed it in the offering. That very night there was an altar call for single mom's or something to that affect and paying bills. I went to the altar, I let pride fall to the wayside and found myself at the altar. I had my eyes closed probably in worship and people kept coming up to me and placing money in my hands. I did not know what to do so I went back to my seat and then counted the money. I beleive there was 85.00 given to me all from a 0.50 offering I placed that night. I went to the pastor and gave him tithe money off of the offering given to me. Testimonies are very important, so share your testimony today ok.
This is how Holy Spirit works with me, He leads, I follow, He shows me an image as I am in full swing of what He showed me doing. Not all the time but there are those moments when He does. Those images stay burned within your spirit. Remember I shared how I was up @ 1:00AM or so and I stayed up the entire night? During that time frame Holy Spirit actually guided me to stand by my bed and face a window in the room as I did spiritual warfare. I love when He beckons me to these exercises in faith and Holy Ghost power/authority in Jesus' name. I am in the midst of this and I see an image in my mind. The image of Pocahontas in the Disney movie where she is standing on the cliffs edge high up in elevation singing "Colors of the Wind." I do not have dark hair and it is not long either in length but I saw this image of her standing there with her hair blowing in the wind. That is how Holy Spirit saw me while following His direction in spiritual warfare. Isn't that cool?
The other day I shared with you how to bless those around you that are helping you, did you follow through? I did. I was in the office a few days learning a new facet of my job. I am not the most technical person around but I do grasp things with demonstration. I like to take copious notes of instruction so I have a manual so to speak I can reference if need be. I heard Holy Spirit speak to me last Sunday to get up early and go to Panera to purchase bagels for my team members and bless them. I did get some Philadelphia cream cheese to go along with them and Panera graciously provided butter. I was most thankful to the kind woman that served me by filling the order I requested. She sliced the bagels and placed similar bagel flavors in each of their own bags. She also gave me a few plastic knives and a plastic spoon, napkins too. It was such excellent customer service I did not give the tip in the tip box but handed it to her personally for her customer service. I then went home and bagged each bagel individually so there was no chance of spreading germs at the office. At the close of the day we had a few left over so we placed them in another bag and into the freezer to stay fresh. I came into work the next day and they were already out for people to enjoy. At the close of that business day there were a few left over so I got this idea to bless the young man that works in housekeeping. This young man I do not think speaks much English but he is always so kind when I am in the office. I walked over to the bagels and pointed and asked if he would like them. He nodded yes so I bagged them up for him to take home with him. I said some were sweet bagels and others not. I do not know if he understood what I said but I bet he understood kindness that day what do you think?
Holy Spirit showed me to go to Panera and what to order. I already knew part one of His plan. Bless my co-workers. It was not until that was fulfilled did He speak to me to bless the young man. I told you over and over again Holy Spirit journeys are not boring but they are full of life. So I had to learn one more facet of my job and I did need some help again. Beleive it or not I knew the main portion of how to do what I had to do. It was the maybe you would refer to it as the no brainer portion, how in the heck do I create a new folder. I again wrote down instructions as I walked through this. I shared with another co-worker and they asked me to write down the instructions for them. I only had my notes in a notebook at the time. I then typed them up and gave them to be looked over by the person that instructed me. Once that was ok I then also added the persons name at the bottom of who instructed me so they get the credit. I was just the person that received the information and typed it up. I was thankful again and brought in pepperoni rolls the next day. See how this works? Holy Spirit guides & directs, do you have a thankful heart? He will use that thankful heart to bless others try it sometime ok.
Pocahontas | Colors of the Wind | Disney Sing-Along
As I just viewed this video I was reminded of a dream I just had yesterday morning 2/6/2021. I cannot share it all with you but I will share a portion of the dream. The dream is documented in one of my journals and it gave me hope & insight. See, I specifically asked for wisdom from Holy Spirit in regard to something and the dream I know gave me the wisdom/insight I asked for. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. In this dream I was watching an in person event take place right before me. It was a demonstration of a face painting technique. It was a combination of the music and the colors of the paint being used. There was a beautiful sparkle somehow in this paint that captured my attention. I saw the face painting done in steps. A stroke of color here, then another stroke of the paintbrush there and it was through the steps that it filled the entire surface of the persons face with beauty. Vibrant but muted at the same time colors with this incredible sparkle incorporated somehow into this face paint. I saw this as a work of art when completed. It compelled me to point at them as I wanted them to know I wanted that experience to be learned by me. At that moment in time nothing mattered what was going on around me and there were no distractions. My eyes were fixed on this demonstration and the music playing during the demo. I have to admit this captured me at the time and my spirit longed to learn more about this.
See how this works? This now segues into this. I love Dale Chihuly's glass blown artwork. I showed you the picture frame of some of his artwork I put together as a grouping. I found a perfect place in my room to place this. Right above my vanity. Do you know what I do daily? I do not know if he is a born again believer in Jesus so I pray daily that he and his household will have household salvation. His artwork I just know is heaven kissed because of the beauty that emanates forth from it. If he is not born again now I think to myself what intensified beauty will come forth when he becomes born again. I pray in faith for a person I never met before. I can imagine in heaven for all eternity him creating works of splendor to add to heavens beauty. I then take it a step further, being able to be taught this unique glass blowing technique so I can then join in on creating for my Jesus. Isn't that exciting, it is to me.
Another great webinar the other day. This time Chuck Pierce was sharing, along with James Goll after the sharing portion. I actually submitted comments and I saved what I shared and I will add a few of them to this blog entry also.
"God has valid emotions for you to express. We are going from swamp time to the land of the Giants. The giants are meant to be our food-the giants you face are part of your prosperity, inheritance in the future. "Come Face to Face with the Roar." Fiery worship versus the fire of the dragon to stop the movement of God. God is working on my testimony for the future, the enemy will try to stop your testimony & discourage you from moving forward with your testimony. Purim is very important to us this year-need new favor to go with the new authority. "War is the grace to fight!" God has a tremendous watchmen anointing for us. A new "lookout" watchman anointing. These portions in Isaiah go along with this:
Isaiah 1; Isaiah 6; Isaiah 10; Isaiah 21:5-12; Isaiah 35; Isaiah 42; Isaiah60-61; Isaiah 65:24; Isaiah 66:8. You are being supernaturally positioned right now. Get ready going to prophesy like new in the days ahead. Anoint your shield, wear and spread your new anointing. Shout each morning the word "RESTORE." Discern properly the good fruit & the bad fruit. It's the year of Holy Spirit. This year the Lord is determining whether you are a friend or foe of God. Ask the Lord what is my identity in this new era, He's trying to bring you into at this time. You cannot reject yourself, who you are & your self worth. Some keys: watch for your harvest moments when you go places-even the grocery store; revelation will lead us to dismantling demons; this is the year when we will see new paths cleared through the forest; Shabbat will lead us to springing forth speedily, you may be pioneering new paths/roads this year."
Pretty good note taking what do you think? There was so much information being shared it was almost hard to keep up with all of the revelation as it was coming forth. These sessions have been great so far and it seems they keep building upon the last person that shared/presented. God is faithful. When they started sharing about the watchmen subject that caught my attention. I found out why I was up @ 1:00AM the other day, it is a certain time frame watch of the Lord. Here are a few comments I submitted during the webinar. I do not even know if anyone reads them. The odd thing about taking this course is that they ask you to submit questions you have but it seems like there is not a response of some sort answering the questions you submit. I do not know if they are just wanting to know what the audience pulse point is or they are actually compiling some form to share the answers to the questions submitted. There are many people that are taking this course and maybe they are overwhelmed at the responses. I would be if I was in that position to review questions and then respond with answers. That seems to be a lot of work what do you think?
"That's really good James not all watchmen have
the same view, it is their area of watching that they follow as Holy Spirit
commands them to watch. They have to choose to accept the watch. My actions
step is I took good notes again today to share with my readers on my blog. I
followed through with sharing Mike Bickle notes from last week on my blog,
Praise God. I fulfilled last weeks action step. This is great revelation on the
watchmen.
I agree with this wholeheartedly, I just did this this morning a bit after
1:00AM which was starting in worship then went into warfare in the demonic
realm in the 2nd heaven and did not even go back to sleep and wrote about it on
my blog early this morning. Praise God James shared because he answered my
question between him & Chuck with me waking at after 1AM today I usually do
not wake that early in the day and stay up the entire night in worship &
warfare. The teacher is present when the student needs teaching. Excellent. See
how Holy Spirit moves, I wondered about waking at 1AM and that was answered
with me not even asking a question to the presenters."
Please note that I also submitted a question too along with these comments.
Talk about an early start to my day today, it was a bit after 1:00am. I woke and I heard myself singing silently inside of me over and over again, "Alleluia." This went on for a while while still in bed. Let me share what I wrote in my journal about this today ok:
"When I rise in the morning when I rise in the morning when I rise in the morning give me Jesus. Give me Jesus, give me Jesus, give me Jesus in the morning." (you may think that sounds like a familiar song but it was to a tune I created while singing to Jesus these very words.) He likes when you sing love songs to Him, He truly does and Holy Spirit knows exactly the tune to sing the words to. He puts those melodies inside me to sing forth. I tell you all the time that Holy Spirit is creative, don't I? Hey that was a side note added, let's get back to what I wrote in the journal ok:
"Preceding this I was up a little past 1:00am & while in bed I kept singing inside me Alleluia over & over again. Then Holy Spirit called me to do some warfare in the 2nd heavenly. I then read Psalm 29 & onto Matthew 22:37, both in The Passion Translation. Before I read verse 37 something caught my eye. The story of the person married 7 times (Matthew 22:23-32) and they wanted to know which spouse in heaven. Heaven is a "No Competition Zone" & we will not have to deal with that in heaven for there is no "marrying" going on there. That was refreshing to be reminded of if 1 should get married again on earth.
Want to hear something interesting? I have been in the office for a few days now & I have scripture on the walls of my office space. You know how I love the scripture/nature/floral Lang calendars right? I cut out former years of the one's I like & put them on the walls of where I work. I looked to my right yesterday & low & behold I have had on one of the walls for a while now guess what scripture/floral picture, Matthew 22:37. Isn't that amazing? Considering the impact it had on my life 1 week ago today while participating in a "live" webinar with Mike Bickle as the one sharing.
God sure does work in mysterious ways doesn't He? Oh if I may suggest 1 thing for today ... be a giver above being a taker. It is far greater to give & extend blessings it truly is. I am not saying though to not receive blessings as they come in your life. What I am saying is to not give with the thought you will get something out of it. Have a thankful heart if others around you are helping out then find a way to bless them."
