I found myself recently in this position. First time I think the email was kind of like a rebuke. I thought to myself is this a rebuke of some sort? I am a person of structure, order and detail oriented. So when I do not get responses to questions I will search out the answers. I am a doer and not a laid back person. Maybe I should not have been treated in that manner when the situation was brought on because of lack of information being exchanged. You know that is why I tend to not like email, text messages because there is no tone in a persons voice to hear the tone it is being presented in. I am pretty easy going in my nature and when apprehension strikes that tends to put me a bit on the defensive. Maybe that is wrong but just maybe that is right too.
So apprehension strikes a second time and I know it is Holy Spirit causing me to pull back and when I do pull back and make the decision to not go forward peace will come to my heart again. It always does. So when one pulls back then that opens a door for another to be blessed. So clever Holy Spirit, so very clever. I love your ways. I truly do. When there is unrest or an unsettled feeling inside of you for a couple of days, sort of like a struggle then that tells me I do not have the green light to move forward. When I am to be somewhere it just flows for me. I am not saying there may not be a bit of pulling going on but ultimately the freedom comes and is released and you go forth on the journey. I have learned that in those moments there is always some sort of hidden blessing.
I have also learned that there is also a hidden blessing tucked away when you follow Holy Spirit having you pull back from something. I walk by faith and that is the best place to be in your life. Sure I started to pack but not place things in a suitcase yet. Yes my hair color turned out superb; pedicure with Coca Cola colored nail polish looks nice also. I even began to compile a gift bag as a thank you blessing along with thank you cards written out. Would you like to really know what one of the agitation indicators was that was pointing me in the direction of not going? It may be silly to you but I know how it works for me. I am shown what to bake and I bake it and take it with me as a blessing. I struggled for a few days if I was to bake Mint Triple Chocolate Bundt cake with ganache frosting. It was so unsettling to me and that should have been the indicator and probably was all along. What if I make it and no one eats it because of covid 19 stuff. This covid stuff is really getting annoying now.
Lets see what else I had in this gift bag: Charles Chips regular & barbeque; Swedish fish tails & Swedish fish candy; S. Pellegrino sparkling water; Keurig McCafe Latte; Gevalia Mocha Latte and of course, Russell Stover individually wrapped assortment of chocolates. Oh how could I forget this, cute watermelon slice design plates with napkins to go with it.
See, even as I am writing this the frustration is lifting and I am most thankful. Sometimes it takes pulling back from something you wanted to attend to see the hidden blessing deeper within. I had to let my friend know I will not be meeting her for lunch this weekend. We used to work together and do you know what we would do as we were both driving home from work in our cars. We would pray with each other. She is a good friend. We were in a bit of a challenging type of job and she wrote down for me once a quick reference guide to help me while I was a my desk. That is friendship. We even went to a local battlefield one day. I was so surprised at how many people from Ohio, Pennsylvania & New York were buried there in the cemetery.
Let me share a brief video I took a few days ago. Even the turtles were enjoying the warm weather are you enjoying warm weather. I love having a suntan and I want a backyard again so I can lay in the sun and not just sit on a patio and catch the late afternoon sun. You know I was lied to when I moved here. I specifically asked to be placed where I had sun during the day, not late afternoon sun. I was a bit dismayed when I moved in and kept looking of the morning sun and it just was not there. I learned that lesson the hard way, more wisdom now I trust I have acquired. I tried a new product for me this past weekend I purchased from Ulta, Watermelon infused St, Tropez self tanning mousse. It is too dark of a tan for me I think it will be going back to Ulta. I love their return policy if you try it and don't like it they will refund you with the receipt. I am glad I still have the same brand but it is Watermelon infused self tanning lotion at a much better price point. You know self tanner is self tanner. They may tell you it is scented like this or that but the scent goes away and you are still left with that self tanner scent/odor until it dissipates
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