Lying Starts With One Seed Of A Lie Planted And Then Grows

1/28/1996

It all starts with one lie and from that lie it is like…I am being shown a tree with many branches. The trunk is the central or main lie in which the other lies stem from. It starts initially as a sprout in the ground and grows but in this instance, it grows out of need not out of love and being nurtured. How shall I describe this? The one lie leads to another then another and so forth, each one is told to cover the previous lies, etc.
I can only imagine the feeling of the person that is doing all of this to themselves and others. There must be no rest for them. Their mind must constantly be “on” never shutting off the clutter noise. Always having to remember what was told in the lie to keep the story up, that poor, poor soul. We need to pray for these people that their hardened hearts turn to the Lord, so their rest and peace will come to them. What an awful and burdensome life they are living. Please, dear and merciful Lord bring rest to these souls.

2/18/1996

Many times of sorrow and sadness are here and much peace has come in the midst of all of this. A calmness, a gentleness if that makes sense. I am being shown a big, full, beautiful sun with rays coming off of it. There is warmth and a soothing from this sun. It makes me think of the words that come to mind “renewed hope.” Yes, that is what I feel and that is what I am experiencing at this time in my life.
Throw me a fast ball for I will catch it. These words could not have been written one year ago for I was not strong in my faith, love, and devotion to our Lord. The King of Kings, my Lord, my Savior. It took one complete year of not working and learning to do without certain objects that I have grown accustomed to. I was always the giver of gifts, not the receiver. I have learned that I still was a giver, but the gifts not necessarily being of high monetary value always. Gifts of thought, from the heart. I always thought that for a gift to really be good it was based on monetary value. Wrong, some of the most beautiful gifts given and received this past year were not always of monetary value.
A beautiful, gentle smile comes to mind. For without the gift of a smile or even a hug one could feel lost and not connected. Many times throughout this past year, I gave these gifts and received these gifts with an open heart. Ah, the pleasure that one‘s soul feels when they finally open their hearts to the Lord. To let Him smile down upon them and feel His ever-strong presence when He embraces them.
That my friend that is what it is all about. Some of the best gifts given and received are not to be bought in a store but they are to be bought out of sometimes many, many tears, sacrifice both spiritual and in the form of fasting. Know that our dear Lord accepts all that we give and present to him. For He is the most generous giver of them all.
Remember, Him being the giver, we must not always be so eager to ask, ask, and ask for things but we must also be open and willing to give to Him also.

3/9/1996

I learned something very important about the gift of discernment of others today. Father suggested sharing information on another with what is given in discernment of that person. Use the rule the medical profession follows; date, time and place it occurred. Only speak of good of another. The words that keep coming to mind “If you don’t have anything nice to say about someone don’t say anything at all.” Father shared a beautiful insight with me…the gift of discernment is knowing when the time/opportunity is right for you to speak with the one that you were discerned about. It could be that moment or 25 years down the road. I liked what he said next, with many acts of kindness done in between. Thank you dear, sweet, and trusting Lord of mine. You taught me this day of “discernment,” now with your help and guidance I will be able to use this.