For many years now I truly live on the edge but I am secure in this because it is Holy Spirit guided and protected also. People, meaning family and friends, know that I have been here before and sure enough I walk through it and God is always on time as I am walking it out. That is one thing I guess people that know me knows this is part of my testimony; who I am; God is faithful in my life journey. Anymore when I share with them about something I may be going through or confronting they don't even bat an eyelash or have concern in their voice because this is a lifestyle for me to walk in. They know the doors open and I proceed to walk right through to the next chapter/phase of my journey with Jesus. With knowing that and I have many, many testimonies of His faithfulness in my life does it make it a bit easier while walking through it. Part of me wants to answer the question with yes and the other part of me wants to say no. This is life reality and in the midst of it I find peace and blessings tucked away on the trail I am walking as I walk it out.
I was in a situation similar in 2014 just before the door was widely opened for me to move to a different state, it truly was miraculous in the manner this happened. I never in person interviewed for the position I accepted, except for about 4 years prior at a totally different location (meaning I was living in a different state completely but it was the same position this time just a different location.) I knew I was to move when He opened the door for me and did not shut it. See, I was wooed here by Holy Spirit to work for one organization. He already saw down the line that I would transfer and work for another organization. I actually interviewed 2 times for the position I was hired for. I was offered the job 2 times and turned it down the first time due to the reduced income salary I would be making. The opportunity then came around a second time and I was offered the job again.
With Holy Spirit guidance I accepted the position and I will tell you He was (and still is) faithful for all my bills to be met even with a few thousand dollars decrease in salary. I have friends that remain at the other organization and they sure do get a lot more perks working for that organization then the one's my current organization gives to their employees. They far exceeded my salary bracket by now for they are given generous raise increases too. The point in me sharing this is to let you know that in the natural realm one would not be able to meet current needs with a reduction in salary BUT GOD.
So back in 2014 I was seeking the Lord for direction and He had me fasting in a certain manner and I wrote in the back of my bible a dream He gave to me. It was about 8-9 months later I was already moved to where I reside. Sometimes I want it to happen now but He knows best and it is His timing. The residence had to be open and waiting for me to move into. All the ducks in the row sort of speaking had to be lined up for this to move in the fashion that it did. I am there again right now in my life. I see the vision down the road but it is the getting to that destination that I have to let go of and let Him move with me, on my behalf. He creates a wake and then I get pulled into it and it is only with Him guiding me do I know where I am going. That is, I am shown one step at a time. I take that step or follow that instruction and then the next one comes to follow. See, I am a person that likes to get things done. If they do not move fast enough for me or I do not get a response in a proper time I think I should have gotten a response I then will go to the next level until the task is completed. In this situation I have to take my hands off of it so as to not mess it up if that makes sense to you.
I want to already be there when I am here because I was shown where there is. That is a big leap in faith for me to take my hands off of this and let Him do it for me.
I knew my time was up where I currently reside about 1 maybe even 2 years ago. I found it so much easier to just sign another lease and tolerate it instead of taking action then. So when I finally catch the vision I keep getting confirmations all along that the timing is now. I pack some of my belongings now and then and still do not know my final city of destination I will reside in. I told you I live an exhilarating life right. Literally sometimes from day to day as I receive my daily bread/portion to sustain until the next day.
Ok enough background info for today, onto the dream I penned in the back of my bible:
I can't even make out the date I wrote in the bible clearly. I see it was February, 2014 maybe it was the first of February. I did not time stamp this dream either. That is highly unusual for me. I was following a certain fast at the time and this is what I wrote about the dream:
"I was finishing up reading the book "Healing The Heart" by Joan Hunter. I kept wanting a snack. I did not give in to the snack, finished the book & when I woke up today Holy Spirit gave me a dream & answer to a ? I was seeking Him about. Where next-just what is the destiny/ministry inside of me. A specific ministry-healing children. There were 2 girls in pink linen (it felt like an Easter type) dresses-the one had glasses on & could not physically see the other one next to her. I could only sense her & Holy Spirit told me to lay hands upon them and say they are healed in the name of Jesus-the girl with glasses on her glasses literally sprung off of her face-I also sensed-felt light shaft of Holy Spirit go into this child as I spoke the you are healed in the name of Jesus. I simultaneously did the same things with both children at the same time-but was only able to see what happened to one of them. The children may have been 4-5 years old. Then Holy Spirit brought my memory the numerous # of times He has given me a compassion-heart for hurting children: orphans in Romania, sick children I prayed for at University Hospitals when Chris was there & how I feel sorry for young children wearing glasses or are in a wheelchair & cannot run around & play like other children can. When I see them I silently ask Holy Spirit why & can I heal them in Jesus so they can run & play like others for they are children & should not be burdened with sickness and disease. I remind that Jesus said bring unto me the little children-He did not push them off to the side like the adults wanted Him to do. I have such compassion for children that others pick on & bully-I see them as children & each child has the right to have liberty & freedom to play & enjoy childhood-not be bullied around & to make their childhood a drudgery-it should be filled with laughter & love & freedom for them to be who God created them to be. Lord my prayer is to bless the children of the world & make them feel that they are loved by God their heavenly Father-heal their hearts & bodies so they can run & jump & have fun in their childhood. When the dream was complete I kept say numerous times "Thank you Jesus." Then Holy Spirit prompted me to record this in my bible with today's date. Amen."
Do you know what is right below this in my bible? 8/28/04 I was given a song verse that I wrote in pencil the few words and I also drew the notes when singing it. See, my time as a child in the tamburitza folk group paid off. I know how to read notes when I see them and where they are placed on the sheet of music. I think I need to go over them now so as to not lose this little song Holy Spirit gave to me what do you think?
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